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Hello, Everyone,

Just wanted to touch base. Went to the doctor today. He asked me how my pain

was. I replied about a five today but a bit fatigued. He wanted me to take

neurotin, cymbalta, lyriaca...I said, 'No thanks'. He asked what I do for

pain...told him of unfiltered apple cider  vinegar when Aleve doesn't do the

job. He looked at me and the (by the way) doctor in training and said, 'Welllll,

let's try some counseling maybe that can help you.' 

'Help me what?', I shot back making my famous twisted tongue in cheek look.

By then he did not exactly know how to put it in words kindly to say I need

help. But before I allowed him to put his foot any farther in his mouth, I said,

'Look, I take vinegar, it works and I am happy, I do things, I do not sit

around, I know what foods to eat, and know that natural products help me out,

yes, I need to lose weight and I walk when I can. I cannot do the excercise you

guys can do, because the fibro will act up. But I am doing

fine.'           He replied, 'OOOkay, but sometimes counseling can

help you find out what works best for you.'  'Yeeeah', I said. 'Well do you

want counseling or

not?'                                     Â\

 Â Â Â Â Â Â  I looked at him and made like my daughter as a teenager and

answered, 'Whatever.'

'Okay, let's set up some things for you.' He left. The nurse came back to hand

my papers for a mammogram and a colostomy. That was it, lol.

I guess the rebellious spirit showed its face today...I am tired. Too tired to

put up with doctors that know I will not take medication for pain. I like him

but....do I need to say anymore. It is the same ol', same ol'.

I am home now and busy typing and printing today's religion lesson for students

tonight.

AND I am Happy. 0L0

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Subject: Re: Is a Fibro attack and Autoimmune Attack ?

To: fibromyalgiacured

Date: Monday, 7 March, 2011, 16:10

 

Hi Joanne,

Some of your past seems like it would be called social anxiety. Since you are

healing more, you are now wanting more out of life, more good social experiences

as well. I am going through that to a point. I just used to avoid what would

make me uncomfortable, but now doing better at plunging in with friends. I don't

have to be around too much intense drama with my family, but it is more there

than with friends. You probably need to be more alert with your family, but as

you heal more, you may not go into hyper alert. It is best to avoid violent

programs. Psalms 11:5, Isaiah 60:18. I always had terrible handwriting, and

could not write neatly even when trying(but could actually draw well). I was a

bit dyslectic, as a child-transposing letters. I seem to be having that more

lately as I type now. I think my body is now working on that as I heal, so it

may be even worse for a while. I am working on some seeds, and ordered a meyer

lemon plant, a some more

seeds. I have a sun porch, and will put some plants in containers. I am in a

condo, and could plant flowers out doors, but here they may spray roundup. It is

all blooming so nicely here in SC, even shrubs. Noise bothers me more than

smells, except chemical smells, I am still very sensitive to. my mom smoked

heavily, as I was in that house 40 years, and think I lost some sense of smell.

I never smoked. I think you are talking about yard sales, and I love those, but

as I have no car, and don't get to them much. I had a friend in IN, as we went

to them-picked up too much I did not need. I joined freecycle here, but as I

live alone, can't really invite strangers over, and no way to take things to

them.

C

>

>

> Lovell

>  

> 'fibro flares' like what I hve had this week where I felt terribly ill and

unable to function are very rare for me now, but, even when I am OK and not

flaring I have like a template of the illness

>  

> What I mean by this is in the morning I always feel half a sleep until midday,

and some days this can go on until 4pm, but every day from 4pm onwards I do feel

more normal.

>  

> I also cannot lift much. I can list a plastic box with toys in it, but I would

not be able to lift a big bag of compost

>  

> Also i find it difficult to do fine mtor stuff like threading a needle. my

writing has changd too, it is rather scruffy, when I was young it was incredibly

neat

>  

> I do not have a great deal of pain but I do have pain around my sacroiliac

joint. This varies form day to day, but even when it is mild it is irrtating. It

feel like something is crawling around there. I occasionally get the same

feeling in my gut, but not so much nowadays

>  

> I am OK with church friends and my market frinds but when I am around people

that are drinking or messing around i feel highly threatened and my senses go on

alert. I would rather not go to a family do, like a wedding, I just feel unwell

at loud rushed events, I need to feel safe all the time and that I have total

control over everything I am doing. If I was at a wedding and somebody popped a

balloon or grabbed me to dance, or put their hands overmy eyes and said guess

who, I would become very panicked ant this would cause a fibro flare so I would

not go in the first place to avoid this sort of thing. a short while ago my

husband pestered me to go to a family party and when we got there I felt really

sad and just wanted to come home. I do not feel like i can socialise in that

way. But 99% of the time I am fine at church and even at church functions, but i

have noticed that at sacila events at church i usually want to sit near the door

so i know I can

> leave easily

>  

> I do not like smells. it is hard for me to think of a smell I like. Smells

make me feel nauseous, but rarely trigger a fibro attack nowadays

>  

> I do not watch muvh TV. If I see somebody being attacked I feel like I am

being attacked. I cannot stand seeing people suffer. I also tend to internalise

things and i get more afraind than other poeple do. I used to obsess about wars

and the economy when i watched TV now I do not worry so much

>  

> A lovely sunny day will relive my fibro a very lot. On some sunny days I will

feel like I barely have any fibro. Eating the ketogenic diet helps loads but if

i do not take the supplements or i do not drink enough water I feel more ill. I

am not good with vigourous excercise but I am good with walks and gardening. If

i do very little excercise i start getting more fibro problems

>  

> I am sharing this more to get my perspectives. I have lost my perspective

lately,

>  

> I have let a lot of stuff get under my skin. I am worrying more lately abbout

not having enough money and I have been getting too involved with my children,

and a fe other things. But since I ahve been sharing on here I ahve minaged to

find my own mind again, I am just kind of wobbly because I think i need to put

some effort in on getting my life more in balance.

>  

> I have done better today. I watched a new version of Brideshead Revisited last

night and that helped me a bit to see some of the stuff I have been doing,

especially with my children. And today i went shopping on a carboot, its weird

but shopping on carboots often helps me get more stable. It has been sunny, and

very mild and this helped. And another good thing that has happened is that

quite a few people on freecycle have given me some cupboard doors, handles a

work top and other stuff. I am going to be able to make some cupboards for my

dining room. This will takeme, I dont know how long but this will be a good

project to get my mind of the junk i have been obsessing about lately

>  

> Thanks for being there Lovell

>  

> all my love joanne