gee willikers

[Guest guest]

Last time I wrote there were so many plans in my agenda. Wellll, I had to put

them on park for this week.

I felt a bout coming on but I fought it as much as possible. Wow, did it take me

for a loop. I layed down for hours for the past four days and still resting.

Felt my heart was going to stop beating, lots of traveling pain, could hardly

breath. I experience this maybe 3x a year, but each is worse than the last. I am

finally walking a bit. I get so worn down from lack of oxygen I almost pass out.

This happened on my last day of teaching religion class....that was

embarrassing. I thought I could handle a two hour commitment in between the bad

bout but I felt I was close to death.

But HOPE keeps me going. Sometimes I feel there is just a bit of time left for

me before I step into my real Home. So I try to do as much as possible, when and

if possible.

Yes, I keep to the diet thing, take the vitamins, vinegar,coconut oil, and all

the stuff. But when the bout arrives there is no stopping it. I just surrender,

sleep, and rest until I get to feeling better.

What am concerned is that the fatigue affects my heart. It is as if my heart is

soooo tired that it just can't beat its beat as fast as it should and will stop

any minute. It slows down to the point I am breathing heard and have to have the

central air extra cool. But all the doctor tells me is that it is depression,

yyyyeah. I am sick of his quacky conclusions.

Well, am tired..going to go rest a bit more.