Don`t know where else to turn right now!

[Guest guest]

I am in so much pain in my spine and muscles right now I don`t

know what to do with myself. I`ve tried laying down to relax, but the

pain won`t let me.

I don`t want to call anyone because I don`t want to hear them say, O I

wish I could help. I know they would, but they can`t. Only I can handle this and

I`m not doing a good job of it.

My thoughts keep going to what would have been so bad about dying

during the cancer surgery. I wouldn`t have had to come back to this

life of pain. People could have said I was in a better place. But I

know we all have to hang in there. I know we all suffer.

My daughter was out for a bit tonight and she is hurting so bad from being

thrown from my old 34 year old horse. I feel for her and don`t want her to have

to live a life like this. I can`t even help her.

I keep here everyone telling me to try and rest and relax, ya, like you all know

, that comes easy, and I know I can`t take any more pills tonight.

I already took my four hydrocodone a day I`m perscribe throught the day, don`t

think that`s enough to hurt me. I took and extended releif morphine and all it`s

doing is eating my gut.

I know so much of it is from sitting over my laptop trying to

figure out how to pay the bills at our store, and I`m all tensed up.

If I could fall asleep maybe it would go away a bit.

I guess I`ll go try again, I`ve got the chills from something right now. It`s

just one of those nights when I wonder why, and have to fight to stay away from

those pill bottles, going to the ER will get me no where.

My family needs me now, and the ER Doc would just look at me with a

dumb look anyway. So you want more drugs huh! Like I really want

them, none of us really want them. We want a normal life.

Thanks for giving me a place where I can come to rant and rave and I`m

understood. Maybe getting it out will keep me from crying like a baby when my

hubby comes home at 9.

Got to try the bed again.

R.

[Guest guest]

---, " imstillhereyet " wrote:

>

> I am in so much pain in my spine and muscles right now I don`t

> know what to do with myself. I`ve tried laying down to relax, but the

> pain won`t let me.

>

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Feel free to vent here when you need it. We understand and are here to listen.

We've all

been in that same place at one time or another.

Don't just " try to relax. " That's not realistic. Instead, do things that will

help. I'll list a

bunch of options here, and maybe something will click for you.

Use ice packs if that works for you, or a heating pad on the sore spots. Fill a

sock with

rice and heat it in the microwave so you can wrap it around the areas that hurt.

(Be

careful not to burn yourself!). Try a warm bath or shower if heat helps.

If you like to read and can concentrate enough to do so, get out a great book.

If not, flip

on the TV and find a funny movie. Anything to distract yourself from

concentrating on the

pain for a while. And if you can laugh, all the better.

Do gentle stretches - if the muscles are causing the problem, actually moving

and

stretching them will help. They can be easy - if your lower back is tight, lie

on your back

and just bring your knees to your chest and hold them, for example, then leave

one foot

on the floor and bring just one knee to your chest. They don't have to be

rigorous - just

warm those tight muscles up! Don't do anything that makes the pain worse.

Try meditation. Put on some soothing music, and then get in the most

comfortable

position possible - sitting or lying down, whatever works for you - and put a

soft warm (or

cool!) cloth over your eyes. Concentrate on your breathing - in for 10 counts,

out for 20.

Focus only on breathing as deeply as possible - fill your abdomen with air and

feel your

stomach going up and down with each breath. Then, starting at your feet,

tighten your

toes, hold it and then release as you breath out. Feel how much more relaxed

your toes

feel. Next tighten your feet and release, your ankles and release, your calves

- you get the

picture. After everything is loosened, then go back to concentrating on your

breathing and

imagine that with every exhale you are sending some of the pain out of your

body. (You

may find that you fall asleep before this exercise is over! But even if you

don't fall right

asleep, you'll find your pain is reduced and your whole body feels stronger.)

The old wives tale of warm milk before bed also really does help too.

I know it may seem too painful to even try these simple approaches, but if you

find the

right approach it will be worth the effort because it will help. And you'll

feel better just for

having taken some control back from the pain.

Good luck. I hope you find some relief.

Cheryl in AZ

Moderator

[Guest guest]

 

I am so sorry you are in so much pain.  We all here can understand exactly how

you feel.  I said a prayer for you and will continue to pray that you get a

little relief.

 

a

 

--- R. wrote:

>I am in so much pain in my spine and muscles right now I don`t

know what to do with myself. I`ve tried laying down to relax, but the

pain won`t let me.