Guest guest Posted December 12, 2008 Report Share Posted December 12, 2008 Bad day today. it's 1:00 am and i'm watching another hard, long night settle in. I can't seem to get a moments relief from my pain. I feel alone. pain has become my constant companion, as well as my worst enemy. I'm already taking so many pills. I'm on 16 dilaudid a day and 160 mg oxycontin every 8 hrs. I've already taken both ambien and trazadone, but am unable to find my way to sleep. Sweat drips, down my face, although i've done nothing active in hours. I'd love to scream and cry, but worry about worrying my disabled son who lives with me and my partner. i want someone to rub my agonizing back, to hold me - or anything which would help me to feel connected, to show me they care and i matter. This journey I'm taking with pain, is one of hardest and most frightening road i've traveled alone. I'm not fun right now, and i don't feel very powerful. I plan to try to write more. I need the connection. I need bout to share how pain is robbing me of my life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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