i cant help but to laugh at myself

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Do any of you proof read your writing?  Well, I do and the things I say

backwards or mispell and write a whole different word than what I meant really

makes me giggle at myself.  And I go back to read it slowly!!  giggle, giggle.

  The lack of brain cells ( or whatever it is)  blows me away.  I was never one

to forget words, or mispell them.  And I always got the point across without

flubbing it up.

You see, I homeschooled my kids for 15 years, between them both.  I had to learn

everything they did and more.  I wanted to make sure that no matter the

subject,  I knew it in depth so it could become a very interesting and fun

topic.  I use to jokingly say I graduated high school 3 times.  I took a silent

pride in myself for overcoming the great obstacles of teaching.  I had to learn

algebra, trig, right along with them.  How could I teach it if I didn't know how

to do it?

But, that was years ago, maybe 7.  But it breaks my heart so deeply that I can't

remember it anymore.  I don't remember alot of the fun we had.  I don't remember

things I said or did last week.  If it boiled down to it and I had a choice, I

would take the intense pain over my mind.  I just want my mind back.  I miss so

much of being who I use to be.  I think this might turn out to be a crying day,

grieving the woman I use to be.  I have even told countless doctors that my

brain feels numb.  They laugh at me.

So, I think I better get my faith in front, so that this won't turn out to be a

lousy day.  I am going to sing to the top of my lungs!!!!  Well, after the baby

has her nap. LOL

Praying that we all find our healing!!!!

Carol B.