Re: feeling sorry for myself

[Guest guest]

Amy,

I'm sorry you're feeling so down today. We all have our bad days. It does

sound like your hubby was being sincere about not wanting children without

you. I think that is the sweetest thing. And he's right about beating

yourself up over it. It won't help and even though we all do it sometimes,

you deserve to feel better about yourself.

I hope things look a little better for you tomorrow. We're here anytime

you need us.

Tara

feeling sorry for myself

Hi, everyone!

I got a call from one of the nurse's at my clinic today. I was sleeping

but

listened to the message and I know what it is about. I forgot to cancel

that

appt for the pains that I was having in my side. Now I have to call back

but

I am really dreading it. I'll just be honest and tell them that the pain

stopped and I had so much going on that I forgot that I had even made the

appt. But I still know that they are going to practically lecture me on

making sure that I cancel any appts that I will not be going to.

Well, last night, I began feeling really sorry for myself. I was about the

ep and something else that has been bothering me. I didn't really want to

tell dh about it bc he seems like he is very uncomfortable when I get

upset,

like he doesn't know what to say or do to help me. But he climbed in bed

and

made me talk about it. I talked about the ep mostly, told him that it

makes

me fell worthless and that he'd be better off without me. I know i

probably

shouldn't have said anything but he made me. He told me that I need to

stop

beating myself up about it. He told me that it is not my fault and there

is

nothing that I can do to change it so I should let it go. He said that

while

he does want more kids, he doesn't want them without me. It's good to hear

that, but when I hear him talking to his friend who has 2 sons and he says

something basically to the effect that he is jealous, I just don't know. I

know that there is a chance that I can't give him everything he wants, and

I

just feel like he should be with someone who can. I don't know.

Amy

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