Re: No Im not lost

[Guest guest]

Not lost, just exhausted mentally and physically and my pain is horrible. I

guess all the stress of my son's problems, my mother-in-law from you know

where, worrying about my specialist appointment on the 30th, and all the

other day to day stuff; it is just wearing me out. I know how lucky I am

and that many people would die to have the wonderful husband and family I

do, and that makes it harder for me to complain, but it still is difficult.

I fight pain and fatigue lately that continues to get worse, my son is

struggling, and his grandmother makes him feel like a failure. I feel so

alone in all this even though my husband is right there with me supporting

me, I feel like I have let them down. And I know should have's and would

have's don't fix anything, it is just frustrating to continue to have to

stay strong all the time when sometimes all I want is for someone to carry

me for a change. The nurturing that I give my children never seems to get

back to me and I need that right now because I don't feel very strong, but

you certainly don't lay that kind of burden on your child.

Well there is good news. 's doctor added an anti-depressant which we

hope will make his Ritalin work better, improve his behavior, help him sleep

at a deeper level therefore decreasing his muscle complaints. We are

working very hard at home on consistency and getting homework and chores

done appropriately and checked off so they can earn something special. It

seems to be working. There were definite improvements last week.

I cannot seem to stay on the computer very long right now due to

concentration and to my pain levels. I will stay in touch as much as I can

until things calm down. I have a meeting at 's school on Thursday,

pray it goes well. I want them to retest him and do another psyche eval.

Gentle hugs,

Fern