Pain Meds

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Just thought I`s share my veiws on how I feel about being called

and addict.

I like one time for some of those people whose call us

that to just walk a mile in our shoes. Too me if we are adddicts we

would be downing them whenever to get a high. If I can get through a

day without taking my pain meds on a regular basis I am very happy.

I win`t say I haven`t double up, but doing that is better than going

insane with pain, and I bet we all know how much we can tolerate

saftely. It`s very seldom I do this, but Lord knows like tonight, I

think I would crack if I didn`t take a little extra.

We may all be dependent, but I bet there are very few of us who are addicts. I

think if they were to take them away from me I would not try to

continue to live. We all need a break from pain.

My anxiety level is still higher than a kite over us having to

break the lease on our store, and probably facing a lein on our

home, but I`m sure we have no other choice, even the lawyer agrees

with us. We are too old to go any futher in debt.

I just want to live in my home somehow until they carry me out. As I`ve always

said, it`s

all left up to me because hubby just sort of backs away. I feel like

I could jump out of my skin. I try praying, I get some relief,

Relaxing my breathing, my mind won`t even let me do that. I don`t

know how I am going to handle this or how we will make it, but it has

to be stopped NOW, not later.

Hopefully there will be a few of you out there who are in sort of the same boat

and can help me through this. I feel like I belong in the physco word, but I

have to do my best to

hold on now to help my hubby through this. I just can`t get a grip on

the anxiety. Sorry I got so long. Going to try and get some rest now.

Hope all of you can have a half way peaceful night, and bless

everyone of you.

R.