rituals/meditation.. was: thank you

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" denise, jani & rowan " wrote:

> We had our babies' ritual of love and life yesterday and found both

> designing it and doing it with people we are close to as a very

important

> step on our healing journey. I made certificates of life and love

for each

> baby and asked each person in attendance to sign them to acknowledge

and

> honor that these little spirits were life forces among us even for a

short

> time. Throughout the ritual we used the theme of butterflies. On

Friday,

> before going back for more metho, I was meditating and asking my body

to

> let go of this pregnancy. During the meditation I got a beaatiful

image of

> three butterflies (one for each baby) taking flight, so I know now

that

> their spirts have been set free.

>

Wow! Its so nice you could do this. All I have is a Polaroid of the

+HPT and a sympathy card from my sister. Lots of get well soon cards

tho...I suppose its all documented on a medical chart somewhere, but

thats different. I really long to have been able to do something like

this, but I don't think that I'd be taken seriously - except by dh of

course. Better keep things this precious to yourself then subject them

to ridicule.

About the butterflies - I recall laying in the hall in the hospital,

knowing that we may not keep this pregnancy, and telling the baby that

I loved it and welcomed it, but that if it had to go, it was O.K. - and

telling this soul that we would welcome it back again if it ever wanted

to return - for however long it would visit us. I clearly recall that

during this meditation butterflies came into my mind (many of them

though).... Some would settle on my hand and stay a while, others

barely touched down, and others simply flew past me. Kinda neat.

Anyway- just thought I'd mention it...

Becca