I'm STRUGGLING!

[Guest guest]

Time to spill my guts... For the past three months, as I've so often

repeated, I've been so stressed out. Well, I have been in such a state

that I found it hard to stay on track, not that I was horrible, but

enough that it has caused me to gain 7 pounds. I will take fries from

the kids's fast food bags... yesterday, I was dividing a 5 lb. bag of

nacho cheese tortilla chips into lunch bags for the kids and I ate some

of those (felt HORRIBLE afterwards, too). Today, I had about 5 really

ripe and sweet small plums... I've not been drinking my water right...

Today I've had about 16 ounces of water, then another 5 oz with alka

seltzer tablets.

I really need to get off the pity potty now and take better care of

myself. I know that eating these small cheats is just a comfort and

loss of self control, as I often will do that when my life is spinning

out of control. So I am having a struggle within because I'm beginning

not to feel good about myself any longer. It's been TOO HOT to walk,

and that's when I feel my best. Last night, not only were my sinuses

clogged and running, but I woke up at 4 and began to stress about

business things, so I was exhausted all day too.

I just wanted to vent a little bit so I could put this all out in the

open and confess to the list. I want to get back on track. Here's my

menu for the day...

2 cups coffee w/cream and Splenda

2 grilled chicken legs

5 small plums

21 oz. water

1 s/f grapefruit soda

Dinner isn't quite done yet, but I took cooked chicken breasts, cut them

into bite sized pieces, put into a casserole dish, sauteed mushrooms in

butter lightly, mixed together with chicken, poured Sun-dried tomato

alfredo sauce on top and mixed lightly. Topped with fresh tomatoes and

basil from the garden and mozarella cheese w/roasted garlic. Will let

you know how it tastes!

Thanks for the support!

Kari