Warm fuzzies, was Pre-op fears

[Guest guest]

Thank you to everyone who responded to my post about fears... and so

quickly... and so positively... and even thank you to those of you who

read my words and just understood. It's sort of like sitting in my

livingroom with a bunch of you around just talking...and you all

UNDERSTAND! You guys get it!!! It's so nice to meet a bunch of people

who get it!!!

So I'm going to write letters to my girls. I wrote a letter to my

husband after I saw the movie Message In A Bottle, because if anything

happened to me, I wanted him to have a reminder, concrete, of how very

much he means to me. Then I gave it to him anyway...because I want him

to know now while we're both very much alive. Life is so very fragile,

and can be taken in an instance, and it's important to live each and

every day as though it's our last. I'll still write to the girls and

yes, it will feel good to put those letters away when I get home from

the hospital. What you said Lyssa about your youngest being too little

to remember you as obese really hits home here... I only wish I could

give my oldest (she's almost 8) the same benefit... however...children

are very forgiving, and I think once we can get out and play together

more, they'll both be so happy. Not to mention, she'll never be picked

on again for having a fat mom. Dawn, thank you for reminding me that we

all go through this, it helps to know I'm not alone. Lea---the only

direct impact I can see this having on my marriage is a positive one---

I spend far too much time feeling inadequate and insecure because of the

way I feel about myself, and my husband who has never given me any

reason for the insecurity---has loved me just the same since day

one----has had to bear the burden of my unhappiness right along with

me. We were walking by one of those teeny-bopper hoochie-mama clothing

stores in the mall the other day and he said--- " Boy, you're going to be

a handful when you start shopping at one of those places, I'll have to

beat them away with sticks " I always said if I ever lost this weight I

was going to shed these baggy clothes and start dressing trampy &

trashy---a la streetwalker chic Seriously though... I have

considered counseling, and I'm definitely the introspective type, and

not afraid to ask for help. ...can I have some of your Xanax?

(I can hear you now--- " Get your own pills girlfriend...these ones are

MINE!!! " ) Did I miss anyone who replied to me?

Thanks guys.

F.

[Guest guest]

,

You can have some of my Xanax anytime! I am happy to share! LOL!!!

Isn't this list just awesome!?! I am glad that you are feeling a bit better!! Hang in there!

& Jody Fortune wrote:

Thank you to everyone who responded to my post about fears... and soquickly... and so positively... and even thank you to those of you whoread my words and just understood. It's sort of like sitting in mylivingroom with a bunch of you around just talking...and you allUNDERSTAND! You guys get it!!! It's so nice to meet a bunch of peoplewho get it!!!So I'm going to write letters to my girls. I wrote a letter to myhusband after I saw the movie Message In A Bottle, because if anythinghappened to me, I wanted him to have a reminder, concrete, of how verymuch he means to me. Then I gave it to him anyway...because I want himto know now while we're both very much alive. Life is so very fragile,and can be taken in an instance, and it's important to live each andevery day as though it's our last. I'll still write to the girls andyes, it will feel good to put those letters away when I get home fromthe hospital. What you said Lyssa about your youngest being too littleto remember you as obese really hits home here... I only wish I couldgive my oldest (she's almost 8) the same benefit... however...childrenare very forgiving, and I think once we can get out and play togethermore, they'll both be so happy. Not to mention, she'll never be pickedon again for having a fat mom. Dawn, thank you for reminding me that weall go through this, it helps to know I'm not alone. Lea---the onlydirect impact I can see this having on my marriage is a positive one---I spend far too much time feeling inadequate and insecure because of theway I feel about myself, and my husband who has never given me anyreason for the insecurity---has loved me just the same since dayone----has had to bear the burden of my unhappiness right along withme. We were walking by one of those teeny-bopper hoochie-mama clothingstores in the mall the other day and he said---"Boy, you're going to bea handful when you start shopping at one of those places, I'll have tobeat them away with sticks" I always said if I ever lost this weight Iwas going to shed these baggy clothes and start dressing trampy & trashy---a la streetwalker chic Seriously though... I haveconsidered counseling, and I'm definitely the introspective type, andnot afraid to ask for help. ...can I have some of your Xanax?(I can hear you now---"Get your own pills girlfriend...these ones areMINE!!!") Did I miss anyone who replied to me?Thanks guys. F.

[Guest guest]

they are forgiving .. my eldest will be 9 in Sept and already has

forgotten how I used to look like. She doesn't recognize me in older

pictures now Talk about a thrill!!

Lyssa

Warm fuzzies, was Pre-op fears

What you said Lyssa about your youngest being too little

to remember you as obese really hits home here... I only wish I could

give my oldest (she's almost 8) the same benefit... however...children

are very forgiving, and I think once we can get out and play together

more, they'll both be so happy. Not to mention, she'll never be picked

on again for having a fat mom.