Feel like quiting

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Hi everybody,

I feel like quitting, but quitting what?

I was dx with a 3mm Chiari last Feb. Nsg dx from an old MRI. Though I would

much rather not have chiari, I was relieved that there was a reason why I had

so many symptoms and perhaps a cure in sight.

Then I had another MRI - not clear whether I had Chiari.

NSG orderded a CINE MRI. That one says no blockage or flow or chiari.

I do have two slightly bulging disks at c5-c6 aand c6-c7. Nsg said the he

hadn't paid much attention to them because they were so small. However, the

EMG showed that I had severe nerve damage in my right arm. NSG didn't

believe that such a small disk could cause any major problems, besides, I am

a lot more symptomatic than a bad disk could cause.

So anyway, today he ordered a diskogram, just to make sure the disks were

okay or not.

Nsg said I could be borderline chiari. Could that cause a lot of problems.

I know what I am feeling is not normal. If the disk has caused my arm

problem, what is causing the rest.

I really wish I could give up and just say, forget the whole thing. I will

live this way and not let it bother me - if I were only strong enough.

Sorry for venting, but I am really in the dumps. I hate feeling the way I

feel, I hate being off work for so long, I hate not being able to pay my

bills, I guess right now I just hate everything. Except for all of you.

Thanks for letting me vent,

Margie