buzz words

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Hi Jan,

It is kind of like the right buzz words get the bees buzzing then the

whole hive starts humming around the queen bee program. Funny how it

makes so much sense in steppism to be building your life around all the

rituals based on what you don't do anymore as the most important thing

in your life. Life can become a never ending quest to become what you

don't do as you lie in wait for your mystical HP to remove defects etc.

The BB chapter into action is mostly about setting the stage for this.

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Hi ,

For me, it got to the point where I found myself tensing up (getting

ready

for fight or flight response?) when they'd ask 'how are you' and it was

never the how are you normal people say to each other as a form of

greeting.

It usually was " How. . .Are. . . You? " said as head slopes downward and

to

the side as they gaze intently with furrowed brows. Because I'm

supposed to

respond that I'm happy joyous and free and peaceful and serene and then

touch on a little problem and finish up with but I'm taking it one day

at a

time and looking at my part. But I haven't had a drink today and that's

what is important.

It's like a damn password. If I say the right line I get the good

strokes.

Jan