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April 20, 2012

Hello. I was diagnosed 20 years ago with bipolar schizoaffective and have had 2

hospitalizations since that time. I have been a really good patient and took my

medication as told but in January of this year, I really started to question

everything and have been working with a counselor to understand myself more and

see that I am not bipolar for life but have had extremes in judgement and by

consistently working with my higher self and connecting to that place of peace,

the adrenalin rush I have been on would cease. It has been a very interesting

journey. I have not reduced my mental health medication as I have had a lot of

sleep problems this year - but I think most of that can be contributed to the

continual questioning I have been doing and an overall state of confusion. I

have started on a homeopathic last week and I am keeping on the path that the

answer is not outside myself but inside. It is a little scary to admit I am

responsible for my life when for so many years I honestly believed I had no

control over what I may do in life and at any time I could wind up in the

hospital. It really is crazy the things we tell ourselves so we can stay in our

own mind's prison. I have for many years only been on Carbamezapine, 800 mg per

day but I added back in Seroquel, 100 mg, Trazodone, 50 mg, and Lorazepam .5 mg,

PRN (Trazodone and Lorazepmam are new this year) when I started not being able

to sleep. Every day I had this feeling I would be going to the hospital or

something worse but I look at this now as that I am just not going 100 miles

another and working on another project to save the world and prove my worth.

Staying in this calm place feels good and I will start following the advice as

far as supplements and eating changes in preparation for reducing other meds.

Thank you for all of the information - this is great.

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