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hi my name is sara i hope to find some friends. i am so happy to find

that there is a group for us in pain all the time. i feel like soo

alone with what i am going through. i am so scared and my family says

that if i am scared that i am giving up. i don't see that. my friends

are no more basically no one that used to call, calls anymore. ever

since i was diagnosed i find that there is noone around anymore. i used

to have friends calling me on the phone, asking me to go out on the

weekends, not anymore. everyone is gone, why! boyfriends right not

one wants to deal with me being sick, they don't want to take on the

responsibility. i can't seem to meet any guys that want to stay

around. why! i feel soo alone. i do have to admit i have good

doctors, and my daughter is an angel, she really does more than

anyone. but she is just five and i want her to have more of a real

life or childhood rather than taking care of mom all the time. she is

always worrying about me alot, when friends ask her to come over and

play she doesn't want to go, she is afraid to leave me. she talks about

me dying. i am not dying, but she thinks i am sometimes when i get

really bad and can't move for a few days. anyhow enough of me whining

i hope that i find some friends and maybe i would be able to help

someone other than myself. signing hopeful