My ra doctor cancelled on me

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I have such luck:}

We had a big storm today, the only day I was looking forward to this

whole month to finally get some answers and treatment. I just needed

a specialist to tell me " yes you do have ra and I can help you with

the pain " . I didn't even think about calling my primary care doctor

to see if she could help me with the pain. That is the only thing

that kept me going all this month at work and at life in

general " all I have to do is wait till the 22nd and everything is

going to be alright " . Now the day is here and it gets canceled. I

just don't know if I can handle this. Especially if this gets worse.

I am poor and uneducated. I am not going anywhere in my life. And now

I am going to be a burden to my new Husband!!!! I thought my life was

terrible all my life and then I met my Husband. Even though we are

poor we love each other. Everything was fine. And now... I can't keep

up anymore. He can't do more. This is very stressful. And no one

seems to care. Everyone says, " She is being too lazy " , " She is taking

advantage of you " , " There is nothing wrong with you " , " it's not as

bad as you make it out to be " . You know I am not so bad. I am

caring,honest,most of the time very funny,(not lately though) and

hopeful. But right now I am beat down. I just want everything to go

back the way it was before I went to the stupid Doctors to find out

what the pain was. I could seem to live with it if I didn't know what

it was. Now I have to reschedule and then tell myself once again all

I have to do is wait until I see the Doctor and then everything will

be alright. Thank you for listening~~~~ Robin