Re: ****MY APOLOGIES***** [LBD_caringspouses] COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS...........

[Guest guest]

Jo,

I've felt that this way this week waiting for in home care to start (and mom is

resistant). You said nothing you need to appologize for...

Heddy

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> > My Lewy Family:

> > I apologize profusely...my earlier email sent this morning was totally

unacceptable and uncalled for and, if I could be granted one wish....it would be

to " UNSEND " my earlier hateful and bitching email! Make that two wishes,

please....my second wish would be for a " headectomy " that's where I would pull

my head out of my............

> >

> > There was absolutely no need whatsoever for me to write and send that email

off.....and, in fact, it really didn't cause me to feel any better, either (cuss

words).....Right now I'm sitting here, feeling tremendous guilt and

frustration......seeing, living and feeling the helplessness that comes after

too many days of no sleep, no help and a plethora of incidents that I was

ill-equipped to deal with, apparently.

> >

> > I promise you all this will be the last of this sort of email that you'll be

receiving from me...

> > I ought to be ashamed and please know that IS exactly how I feel at this

moment.

> > I promise to do better in the future.

> > Hopefully, 's full-time, 40 hour a week caregiver will show up and I

will be able to go to my room, lock the door, crawl into my trundle bed, pull

the covers over my head and sleep for a week (or two).

> >

> > Thank you all for hopefully understanding and also for accepting my humble

apology.

> >

> > Always,

> > All Ways,

> > MJ

> >

> >

> >

> > Jo

> >

> > >________________________________

> > >

> > >To: " LBD_caringspouses "

<LBD_caringspouses >;

" LBDPatientFamilyCaregiversandFriends "

<LBDPatientFamilyCaregiversandFriends >;

" LBDcaregivers " <LBDcaregivers >

> > >Sent: Monday, July 23, 2012 7:25 AM

> > >Subject: [LBD_caringspouses] COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS...........

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >Is anyone else out there in LewyLand AS eagerly looking forward to the

opening ceremonies of the Olympic Games AS I AM?

> > >

> > >Sorry to vent; but, in my frustrated frame of mind (no other care givers

for the last 8 days.....except myself) here to see to 's needs, wants,

desires, answer questions, pick up after, fix meals for, do laundry for, quiet

his fears, change his bedding, change him, clean up after, chase after, etc.

etc. etc.

> > >

> > >The " GAMES " and thus, his interest in them, will... prayerfully allow me

some much-deserved 'quiet time' and peace of mind! To put it mildly, I am

pretty much Sick-up and Fed with Lewy!!!!! I want to be entertained, thoroughly

by another, more likeable 'team' .....one that I won't have to pick up after, be

verbably abused by and, I can just Turn Off when I am tired and have had more

than I can take....POOR PITIFUL ME!!!

> > >

> > >Sign me:

> > >HAVE HAD ALMOST MORE THAN I CAN BEAR.

> > >

> > > Jo

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