Re: I have become a monster

[Guest guest]

Pain makes all of us lose patience. Remind yourself that you are learning to

live with a

different set of signals from your brain that are telling you that you hurt!!

Also, are you

taking any steroids? They can affect you psychologically a great deal. I tell

people to hide

from me when I must take them and I avoid taking steroids in any way that I can.

Hang in there!!!

Pat

>

> i noticed that i get angry really easy in the morning but today was the

> mother of all mood swings. i feel awful and please don't judge me. when

> my boyfriend goes to work early i have to take our dog out. it always

> takes me awhile to get up to take him out so i get pretty grumpy. well

> today when i was putting on his leash he licked and i got angry and i

> kicked him. just once though. what is wrong with me? who does that? all

> he did was lick me and it filled me with rage. i love him so much he is

> just precious but sometimes i just don't want him anymore. i don't have

> patience for him sometimes. what can i do?

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Monster,

You are not a monster, you are completely human. It sounds like you

really need to take care for yourself first, then with time you will

be in a better position to care for others. Be easy on yourself.

In the meantime if it will make you feel better I can send my husband

over and you can kick him!

Have a good day.

[Guest guest]

Lizzy,

Are you on steroids like prednazone, as these can cause some people to

become agitated and angry.

marla

lizzy138_2001 wrote:

>

> i noticed that i get angry really easy in the morning but today was the

> mother of all mood swings. i feel awful and please don't judge me. when

> my boyfriend goes to work early i have to take our dog out. it always

> takes me awhile to get up to take him out so i get pretty grumpy. well

> today when i was putting on his leash he licked and i got angry and i

> kicked him. just once though. what is wrong with me? who does that? all

> he did was lick me and it filled me with rage. i love him so much he is

> just precious but sometimes i just don't want him anymore. i don't have

> patience for him sometimes. what can i do?

>

>

>

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thanks melynda that did make me smile

Pain makes all of us

lose patience. Remind yourself that you are learning to live with a

> different set of signals from your brain that are telling you that

you hurt!! Also, are you

> taking any steroids? They can affect you psychologically a great

deal. I tell people to hide

> from me when I must take them and I avoid taking steroids in any

way that I can.

>

> Hang in there!!!

> Pat

>

> --- In , " lizzy138_2001 " <lizzy138_2001@>

wrote:

> >

> > i noticed that i get angry really easy in the morning but today

was the

> > mother of all mood swings. i feel awful and please don't judge

me. when

> > my boyfriend goes to work early i have to take our dog out. it

always

> > takes me awhile to get up to take him out so i get pretty grumpy.

well

> > today when i was putting on his leash he licked and i got angry

and i

> > kicked him. just once though. what is wrong with me? who does

that? all

> > he did was lick me and it filled me with rage. i love him so much

he is

> > just precious but sometimes i just don't want him anymore. i

don't have

> > patience for him sometimes. what can i do?

> >

>

>

>

>

>

>

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yeah i'm on prednisone. i didn't know that was a side affect. thanks

for the info pat

Liz

>

> Pain makes all of us lose patience. Remind yourself that you are

learning to live with a

> different set of signals from your brain that are telling you that

you hurt!! Also, are you

> taking any steroids? They can affect you psychologically a great

deal. I tell people to hide

> from me when I must take them and I avoid taking steroids in any

way that I can.

>

> Hang in there!!!

> Pat

>

>

>

>

> --- In , " lizzy138_2001 " <lizzy138_2001@>

wrote:

> >

> > i noticed that i get angry really easy in the morning but today

was the

> > mother of all mood swings. i feel awful and please don't judge

me. when

> > my boyfriend goes to work early i have to take our dog out. it

always

> > takes me awhile to get up to take him out so i get pretty grumpy.

well

> > today when i was putting on his leash he licked and i got angry

and i

> > kicked him. just once though. what is wrong with me? who does

that? all

> > he did was lick me and it filled me with rage. i love him so much

he is

> > just precious but sometimes i just don't want him anymore. i

don't have

> > patience for him sometimes. what can i do?

> >

>

[Guest guest]

lol only send him if you want to ha ha. i can't help it though i feel

really bad when i do thing like that.

Monster Liz

>

> Dear Monster,

>

> You are not a monster, you are completely human. It sounds like you

> really need to take care for yourself first, then with time you will

> be in a better position to care for others. Be easy on yourself.

>

> In the meantime if it will make you feel better I can send my husband

> over and you can kick him!

>

> Have a good day.

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

--- In , " lizzy138_2001 " <lizzy138_2001@...>

wrote:

>

> yeah i'm on prednisone. i didn't know that was a side affect. thanks

> for the info pat

>

> Liz

>

It's called: " 'roid rage " .

Learning to control it

is learning to recognize it.

Good Luck, Shauna

[Guest guest]

oh my gosh, I so understand. I have 5 kids and a husband that have been

driving me insane for the past 2 to 3 weeks (same time this crap has been flared

up) ..... I have been hateful, mean and down right awful like a monster, I

feel awful later, guilty even especially for the kids who just do not

understand

mommy feels like poo and she does not mean to yell and scream....I do not

know what to do either. I have tried walking away (and on my feet that is a

joke) I have apologized to the kids and husband already several times but once

the damage is done I think it is too late. I try to put on a happy face but

it seems after I have had my happy face on all day I get even more monster

like, like it has all built up all day from feeling miserable and no one

understanding that I am sooooo tired of this, sooo sick and tired of being sick

and

tired.......

anyway I am rambling on.....I do understand I wish I could make my monster

go away too

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Dear Lizzy,

Glad you got a little chuckle.

> >

> > Dear Monster,

> >

> > You are not a monster, you are completely human. It sounds like

you

> > really need to take care for yourself first, then with time you

will

> > be in a better position to care for others. Be easy on yourself.

> >

> > In the meantime if it will make you feel better I can send my

husband

> > over and you can kick him!

> >

> > Have a good day.

> >

> >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

hey amber. i know it's hard. i also saythings that i regret. i think

me and my boyfriend are on the verge of breaking up. he is getting

sick and tired of dealing with everything that has been going on and

i hate that he doesn't understand so i say mean things. uh i just

want this ugliness to go away. it's so terrible i feel like i can't

control myself when i get angry like that. but i will soon be off the

prednisone but perhaps on something worse

Liz

>

> oh my gosh, I so understand. I have 5 kids and a husband that have

been

> driving me insane for the past 2 to 3 weeks (same time this crap

has been flared

> up) ..... I have been hateful, mean and down right awful like a

monster, I

> feel awful later, guilty even especially for the kids who just do

not understand

> mommy feels like poo and she does not mean to yell and scream....I

do not

> know what to do either. I have tried walking away (and on my feet

that is a

> joke) I have apologized to the kids and husband already several

times but once

> the damage is done I think it is too late. I try to put on a happy

face but

> it seems after I have had my happy face on all day I get even more

monster

> like, like it has all built up all day from feeling miserable and

no one

> understanding that I am sooooo tired of this, sooo sick and tired

of being sick and

> tired.......

>

> anyway I am rambling on.....I do understand I wish I could make my

monster

> go away too

>

>

> amber

>

>

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lol go jill!

> >

> > > Pain and medication can change you, it is simple as

> > > that. It is a biological and psychological.

> > > However, it is nothing that you are stuck with or

> > > that cannot be manageable. From the way it sounds

> > > you need to be on more effective pain management.

> > > If your pain is being controlled you may need to

> > > change chemically...like that prednisone you are

> > > taking. I know for me, if I take my 4mg I am ok,

> > > but if I double it to a mere 8mg (still a low dose)

> > > I become Satan himself. While my pain is greatly

> > > reduced it just does something to me chemically that

> > > makes people want to admit me into the nut hut. I

> > > cannot sleep, I am tense, and I am mean. I am sure

> > > other medications can do that too, just using pred.

> > > as an example, but remember is meant to simulate a

> > > hormone in your body.

> > >

> > > Sometimes we need to breathe before we snap, and I

> > > know that is easier said than done. And at least

> > > know that you are not a lone in feeling this way

> > > sometimes. Without necessarily going into great

> > > details, explain to your doctor what is going on.

> > > Maybe you can reduce your prednisone, or maybe you

> > > need to take other action due to depression if it is

> > > more serious. Don't be ashamed to say you need

> > > help...you only have one life to live here, don't

> > > spend it miserable and mad at the world. This is

> > > the body we were dealt and we have to make the most

> > > of it...eventhough it seems grossly unfair and

> > > wrong.

> > >

> > > Shandi

> > >

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Normal. that would be nice i hope you find it amber. they don't

understand that when you feel that frustration you can't calm

yourself down. i tried explaining to my BF. i didn't work but iknow

he will come around. he always does. as long as they know you love

them it won't matter. my father was very sick and he would get angry

too but i knew it was his sickness and not him. i knew because he

always showed me so much love and it was only when he felt pain that

he would be mean. sometimes you do't have to say sorry you just have

to show you are

liz

>

> I know I have been awful still, I apologize but kids just do not

understand

> like an adult can esp my little ones. I hope my lyrica works and I

can go back

> to normal...I know my family thinks I have lost my mind and they

probably

> avoid me most of the time......I just so miss NORMAL......I get

soo frustrated.

> I try to put the happy face on and do whatever the family is doing

but then

> I get sooo frustrated with the pain I blow. I hate it but I do....

I try to

> tell my kids that mommy is sick and having problems and try to

explain to them

> that the pain makes mommy cranky but it is so hard for them to

understand

> and remember.

>

> I got to find my normal again.

>

>

> amber

>

>

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