Re: Re: Younger people with ra

[Guest guest]

Clora..we are all different and we vary from day to day. Some days, I can

move the furniture to vacuum..other days, I can't lift the blankets off to

get out of bed. When I was on 60 mg of Prednisone, I could have lifted my

car to clean under it!! LOL

Your daughter doesn't understand. I would just answer her by saying, " Your

mother-in-law is very fortunate. "

Some people don't get it and never will.

_____

From: [mailto: ] On

Behalf Of CLORA

Sent: Saturday, August 30, 2008 8:51 AM

Subject: [ ] Re: Younger people with ra

Group;

Hello everyone, my daughter said something that hurt me. She didnt

mean to hurt me for she is a very loving daughter. She said " My

mother n law must have a high tollerance for pain she is not hurting

from RA like you are. " Myself I thought everyone has a different

level of RA. I didnt know how to explain this to her. Her mother n

law hurts from RA, but she is able to clean house, I can't do much

of anything. I dont hurt like I use to, taking the prednisone is

great. But I still am unable to clean house like I use to. Anyone

know why this is?

gentle hugs everyone

Clora

>

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 8/30/2008 9:45:18 P.M. Central Daylight Time,

stephdenicola@... writes:

>I started Remicade in March 2000 and it has put me in a medication induced

remission for 8.5 years.>

Steph,

Are you continuing to be on Remicade or have you stopped?

dd

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deal here.

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[Guest guest]

Hi ,

     I am 30 (31 in 2 weeks) and I was dx'd with RA in 1999 when I was 22. I can

sympathize with RA stiealing your fun years. I was in my last semester in

college when my RA started. I had planned to be a HS English teacher for 6-8

years by that time. I was put on MTX within 2 weeks of being dx'd. I was advised

against working as a teacher with all the germs in schools. I started Remicade

in March 2000 and it has put me in a medication induced remission for 8.5 years.

I feel blessed every day -- not because of the RA, but the ability to get out of

bed and go to work, which many with RA are unable to do. I met my husband in

2004 through match.com and he only knows me with RA. I know this is cheesy, but

when my RA was at its worst I wondered what I had done to deserve such a

horrible disease. Some days, when I'm with my husband I wonder what good I did

that I got such an incredible guy.

Take care,

Steph in VA

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The 2008 Charlottesville

Arthritis Walk was Sat. May 3 at UVA's Stadium The Walk raises both

awareness of the prevalence of arthritis and money for research & programs for

people with arthritis!  The Cville walk raised over $25,000!   " Never

underestimate the power of a small, dedicated group of people to change the

world -- indeed, it's the only thing that ever has. " (Margaret Mead) AmeriCorps

Alums -- Still Getting Things Done

[Guest guest]

,

It does seem to hit in the blink of an eye.  I was on FMLA but it expired after

16 weeks and I got a letter 2 weeks ago saying my job was no longer protected. 

I'm suppose to go back on Oct 1. I hated going anywhere  b/c I walked with a

bent knee (since I couldn't straighten my knee completely) and people would

say...did you just have surgery? I felt like saying YES so I didn't have to

explain RA.  I got so sick of hearing....I have arthritis in my right knee too. 

It's so not the same!!!  I am in Arlington TX but lived in Miami, Ft.

Lauderdale, Kissimmee and we have family in Plant City and St. Pete.Tampa. 

 

Paris

[ ] Re: Younger people with ra

Paris..

Thanks for the support.  I'm glad you seeked a support group so early on.  I had

a hard time accepting this disease.  I tried to hide from it.  And the drs were

very stumped.  No known family history and because I was so young.  My mom took

me to a nutrionist and took an hr long survey.  She thought my break up with my

first serious bf triggered the ra.  I remeber when it happened.  I was siiting

at a football game agains my high school's arch rival goofing off being a normal

teenager.  My mom and sister were a few bleachers up.  And I got excrutiating

pain in my hips.  The metal bleachers killed.  But I stuck it out.  I came home

and could barley walk to the bathroom the next room over.  My mom was convinced

I hurt myself or someone hurt me and I wasn't telling her.  I couldn't walk from

that friday thru the following tuesday.  I could feel it travel through my

body.  My hand swelled up so bad, I was convinced I got bit by a poisenous

spider.  We have many down here.  Anyhow, my uncle is a pa and told my mom to

get me to a dr asap.  They ran so many tests.  Just before doing a spinal tap,

my tests came back positive for ra.  I had no clue what it meant.  I instantly

thought to my geart grandparents that had deformities in their hands.  But that

wasn't ra related.  I then went to a specialist at nemours children hospital who

confirmed my dx as juvinile ra.  He said I'd probably be in a wheel chair in a

few yrs since my knee already had limitation and my ellbows..I was devasted, but

have pushed on to make that not happen.  Not yet.  The only time I do use a

wheelchair is when I go to theme parks.  And then of coarse I get looks for

everyone.  It broke my heart to have complete strangers judging me like this. 

They have NO clue..none at the devastion that comes with this.  Especially being

the only " sick one " in my group of friends and family.  My work has been

somewhat

supportive.  But being on fmla, I guess legally they have to.  I'm a very

sensitive person and people's comments tend to upset me so bad it just causes

more flares.  I know I shouldn't care but its hard..

Ok..I rambled a lot..sorry.

Anyhow,  my suggestion is be aggressive with treatment.  If something isn't

working for u, be strong and demand a diferent drug.  They aren't the ones

having to go through the pain and side effects. I have to remember that all the

time. 

I live in between orlando and daytona.  In a city called deltona.  I grew up in

dayotna beach, moved away to madison wi for a short time.  Couldn't handle the

weather at all.  Where are u at?

>

> erin,

> kudos to you hon!!  You must have been very brave getting dx so young.  I just

celebrated my 37th birthday  and was diagnosed 4 mths ago.  I can't imagine what

you have and are going thru. I hope the best for you and just keep your chin

up..  You can do it!!  Where in Florida do u live?  Lived there and have family

there.  Paris

>

[Guest guest]

HI PARIS, I KNOW EXCACTLY WHAT U R TALKING ABOUT. PEOPLE SO JUDGE & IT'S RUDE &

IGNORANT!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW OLD WERE U WHEN DX? I WAS 5YRS.OLD. I'M NOW 38 & STILL

GOING ON WITH MY LIFE, LIMITATIONS & ALL. I SAY U TAKE ME AS I AM OR DON'T TAKE

ME AT ALL!

THANK-YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I TO USE A WHEELCHAIR FOR THEME PARKS, MALLS

& BIG MOVIE THEATERS. I'M THE ONLY ONE OF MY FRIENDS & FAMILY THAT IS SICK AS

WELL BUT THEY TREAT ME JUST THE SAME AS EVERYONE ELSE. IF U EVER NEED TO VENT

PARIS I'M WILLING TO LISTEN. GOD BLESS,MELYNDAGAMEZ 9/1/08 1:55P.M.CENTRAL

[ ] Younger people with ra

>

> Hi everyone..

>

> I just wanted to see how many of you are younger with RA?  I am 27 and was dx

11 yrs ago, just at the age of 16.  I've had a lot of depression issues with

dealing with this at a younger age.  I know some like melynda got is at much

younger ages. So I feel guilty even saying all this.  I never mention how I feel

like I was robbed of my " fun years " as I don't want to feel like I'm throwing a

pity party  to my friends and family. I don't like to show my emotions, although

it happens from time to time.  I also found out recently I have pcos..polycyctic

ovarian syndrome..which means slim chances for kids.  I don't have any, but

dearly love my 3 and 1 yr old nieces.  I have had a few failed relationships bc

they couldn't handle me being sick.  And the dr wonders why I have depression? 

And I have severe limitations in my knee and both elbows.  So I am so self

concious and get panic attacks when I go anywhere new.  Sorry about venting.  I

just

>  wondered how others deal.  I don't post very often..I get nervous..sounds

funny..I know.  I'm kinda a nut case.  Oh well.  Gotta laugh about it..when u

can.

>

> Thanks for listening

>

> Central FL

>

>

> ------------------------------------

>

>

[Guest guest]

HI ERIN, HOW R U DOING? I'M DOING BETTER THANK-YOU FOR ASKING. I HAVE THE SAME

PROB. WITH MY LEFT ELBOW THEY ASK ME CAN U STRAIGHTEN IT OUT, I SAY NO THAT'S

HOW FAR IT GOES. THEN I FEEL Y SHOULD I HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF TO ANYONE.. I TO

GET HOT I'M LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON.. ERIN JUST REMEMBER WE R PEOPLE

TOO!!!!!! I'M HERE TO LISTEN & READ THE POSTS IF I'M FEELING GOOD SO GIRLFRIEND,

VENT, VENT,VENT!GOD BLESS,MELYNDAGAMEZ 9/1/08 2:05P.M.CENTRAL

[ ] Re: Younger people with ra

Hi Melynda

Oh don't get me wrong.  I don't regret anything my mom has done for

me.  My immediate family is super supportive.  I only have 2 friends

that truely get me.  I bet it was hard when your mother passed.  I

don't know what I would do.  She just took me today and yesterday to

my appts.  I had a picc line put in last night for my rituxan

treatments.  She is always there for me, I just know she feels

guilty.  But I tell her all the time, its not her fault.  Its nobodys

fault..  It just happened.  I don't wish this on anyone..and I think I

would be the strongest in my family to take this on.  I just realized

with recent events that I do need to fight harder & stronger.  I go

through time period where I somewhat give up.  My limitations in my

elbows cause them to not straigten.  They are like at 90 degree

angles.  I told my Rhuemy Tuesday on my last appt, that they are my

barbie arms.  He almost fell out of the chair laughing. I told him

this after asking if any of his other patients have these problems. 

Bc even when I go to other dr offices, and they have to take my BP,

they are always like straighten your arm.  And when I respond " thats

as far as it goes " , they look at my like I have 3 heads. If people in

the medical business are making me feel horrible about it, it just

makes me wonder what the everyday joe thinks. I am somewhat in a

shell, but mainly with new ppl, or ppl that make inappriopraite

comments.  Then I tend to shut them out.  My knee causes me to limp

pretty badly.  That one I can't straighten either.  It causes me to

have so much strain on my left foot bc thats where all my weight is

carried. The Drs refuse any knee replacement bc of my age.  I can

understand, but it still makes me frustrated to know that there is

something that can be done, but I have to ride it out until they can

do such a procedure.  So uncomfortable & makes the things I love

almost impossible & not much fun.  I love to shop, but I get so worn

out & I get SOOOOO hot.  Like dripping with sweat.  I think it has to

do with my meds.  I am on Prednisone, Rituxan, Arava, Cymbalta, &

Lortab.  I am thinking of getting one of those necklaces that cools

you.  I carry ice packs with my to put on my elbows to try to cool me

down.  I get embarrased bc I feel like everyone is looking at me

either for the way I walk or the very evident fact Im hot as heck

just walking around and such.  Thanks so much for your support &

everyone in the group.  I get hesitant to email the group bc I don't

want to bombard anyone with my problems.  But lately with all my new

illnesses, I felt I had to vent or I was going to explode..lol

My goodness, you arent having a very good go at it.  Im sorry to hear

about all that. You are a strong woman & I know just by your posts,

you will pull through that with flying colors.  You are such a

optimist & it gives me hope.  Again thanks to everyone's kind support.

--- In , Melynda Gamez <melyndagamez@...>

wrote:

>

> ERIN LIKE I'VE SAID BEFORE EVERYBODY IS DIFFERENT BUT ALIKE IN SOME

WAYS.. WHEN I LOOK BACK I DON'T REGRET ANYTHING MY MOM DID FOR ME TO

MAKE ME BETTER TILL THE DAY SHE DIED, I WAS 14 THEN. IT WAS THE MOST

SCARRIEST DAY OF MY LIFE CUZ MY MOM ALWAYS TOOK ME HERE & THERE TO

FIND SOME KIND OF REMEDY OR CURE FOR ME. DO U MIND ME ASKING WHAT

LIMITATIONS DO U HAVE IN YOUR KNEES & BOTH ELBOWS????????????? ERIN

NO ONE IS PERFECT BY FAR & WE ALL HAVE LIMITATIONS IN ONE WAY OR

ANOTHER..

> IS IT REALY THAT BAD ERIN THAT U FEEL SELF CAUCIOUS? U WANT TO HEAR

SOMETHING? RIGHT NOW I'M HAVING MY FAMILY FEED & DRESS ME CUZ I BROKE

MY ARM,FRACTURED MY WRIST & DISLOCATED MY ELBOW. MY OTHER HAND IS

FUSED DUE TO MY SEVERE RA. I DEAL THOUGH CUZ U NO WHAT MY FAMILY

LOVES ME & I LET THEM HELP. GOD BLESS U SWEETIE, I HOPE U CAN COME

OUT OF THE SHELL I THINK U R IN......GOD BLESS,MELYNDAGAMEZ 8/29/08

10:44P.M.CT     VENT ANYTIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

------------------------------------

>

>

[Guest guest]

WAY TO GO GIRL I COULD NOT HAVE SAID IT BETTER MYSELF ABOUT THE RA..WELL KRISSY

CONGRATS & ENJOY EVERY MINUTE OF YOUR PREGNANCY CUZ IT'S AWESOME!! BELIEVE IT OR

NOT? WHEN U R PREG & HAVE RA IT'S LIKE THE RA GOES AWAY FOR THE 9 MONHS & I'M

NOT SHITTING U. I LOVED BEING PREG. W/ MY DAUGHTER,ALYSSA. SHE'S A PERFECT LIL

GIRL & SOOOO HELPFUL. I BELIEVE MY MOM & OUR LORD

SENT HER TO ME......... GOD BLESS,MELYNDAGAMEZ  9/1 08 9:20P.M.CENTRAL

[ ] Re: Younger people with ra

Hi -- you've been very brave!! I was 16 when I was diagnosed and I;m 28

now. Alot of what you're saying sounds familiar!! Luckily, I have the disease

under control and my husband and I are expecting our first child (I " m 8 weeks

pregnant!) Please always remember that you have rheumatoid arthritis, it does

not have you!!!

 

Krissy Waller

 

" The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you

settled for. "

 

 

 

 

     

[Guest guest]

HI CLORA, HOW R U DOING? IT SOUNDS TO ME YOU'RE HAVING SOME MOTHER DAUGHTER

ISSUES.. CLORA, TO ME U SEEM LIKE A GREAT MOM EVEN THOUGH U HAVE CERTAIN

LIMITATIONS. BUT U KNOW WHAT IT'S NOT WHAT WE CAN'T DO, IT'S WHAT WEEEEE CAN &

TO ME THAT'S

ALL THAT MATTERS. CLORA JUST KEEP DOING WHAT U DO & U WILL B HAPPY FULL OF LIFE

& COMPASSION JUST THE WAY U R WITH THE RA

GROUP.. GOD BLESS,MELYNDAGAMEZ 9/1/08 9:50P.M.CENTRAL

[ ] Re: Younger people with ra

Group;

Hello everyone, my daughter said something that hurt me. She didnt

mean to hurt me for she is a very loving daughter. She said " My

mother n law must have a high tollerance for pain she is not hurting

from RA like you are. " Myself I thought everyone has a different

level of RA. I didnt know how to explain this to her. Her mother n

law hurts from RA, but she is able to clean house, I can't do much

of anything. I dont hurt like I use to, taking the prednisone is

great. But I still am unable to clean house like I use to. Anyone

know why this is?

gentle hugs everyone

Clora

>

[Guest guest]

HI LARISSA, HOW R U DOING? I HAVE NOT SEEN TOO MANY POSTS ON U, WERE U GONE? I

THINK U & I R TWO VERY LUCKY WOMEN TO HAVE FOUND GREAT MEN DESPITE OUR

CICUMSTANCES. LET THE PEOPLE AT WORK TALK THEIR CRAP AS LONG AS U KNOW THE

TRUTH,LARISSA.

YES SOMETIMES IT MAY B DIFFICULT FOR OUR HUB'S TO ARRANGE WORK OR TIME FOR

THEMSELVES DUE TO OUR RA BUT U KNOW WHAT

 HE LOVES ME JUST THE WAY I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS TO U & YOUR

HUB,MELYNDAGAMEZ 9/1/08 10:05P.M.CENTRAL

[ ] Re: Younger people with ra

I was diagnosed with RA a year ago at the age of 25. My RA came on very

quickly and hit me very hard. In just short of 4 months I went from

working out 3 times a week to not being able to get out of bed. I am a

teacher so the people I worked with would make comments about how lazy

I was. There are a lot of times that I feel like I have lost a big part

of myself. With everything that I go through I really feel sorry for my

husband. He is a loving and supportive man and I am very lucky to have

found him. I am on orencia and everything has to be planned around my

treatments. IT SUCKS!!!! It is wonderful to read posts from people my

age. Wishing you a pain free day!!!!

~Larissa

------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I just turned 27 and I was diagnosed with systematic Lupus 2 weeks after my

19th birthday. Being young with an illness that many associate with the

elderly and helpless is the pits for sure. I have a really funny explanation

of Lupus that I give to people when they ask what it is. I tell them that my

body is a high school and my organs and my joints are like the nerdy gamer

kids and my over active immune system is like the football stars or bullies

and they're always trying to stuff my organs and or joints into a locker.

They're oppressed and picked on. It seems to highlight the finer points and

takes the seriousness out of having it, for the moment anyhow. My husband

was really worried about dating me because when I was younger I had many

more flares than I do now. I medicate with pro biotic and other herbs. I'm

pretty functional these days. After going off steroids I lost 90 pounds and

the swelling in my hands all but left leaving me able to play the piano

again.

I know how you feel, I do, I understand the constant looming fear that

someone will catch on that you're not " normal " . It takes time to get over

that. I'm super into music so I started looking for musicians that I enjoy

with health issues and took comfort in the fact that I am not alone, I still

have a chance at a life and there are many many people out there just like

me. Stuart Murdoch , singer for Belle & Sebastian, has chronic fatigue and

spent his 24,25, and 26th year suffering in his parents attic. I know of a

few jazz guitarist with early onset RA who switched to keys but kept

playing.

Anyhow who can't love you with your flaws isn't worth loving. There are

amazing men out there, it just takes a while.

I would also like to add that when I was 18 I was told that my chances of

conception were slim to none and my chances of carrying to full term were

even less.

I have two children and believe me it seems I had no trouble conceiving

them. I had cyst, endometriosis and Lupus, it was high risk for sure. There

are a lot of options out there for you when you decide to have a child,

fertility treatments, surrogacy, adoption. All things I was looking into

before my body decide to tell the doctors where to stick it.

You'll be okay and if you need anything I'm totally here.

Cheers-

Gin

On 9/3/08, Margaret <margaret.kamphorst@...> wrote:

>

> Hi ,

> I have had it since I was 19 but it took me until this

> year to get a formal diagnosis. I'm 36 now. Finally on RA

> drugs and finally have docs that don't think I'm crazy for it.

> I've also had failed relationships due to it. One guy told me

> I was a hypochondriac and made fun of me.. called me an

> old lady.. Are you currently dating? If so how do you bring it

> up with the guys without scaring them off or making them act

> like you can't do anything yourself?? Just wondering.

> Hope today is better for you,

> Margaret

>

>

> >

> > Hi everyone..

> >

> > I just wanted to see how many of you are younger with RA? I am 27

> and was dx 11 yrs ago, just at the age of 16. I've had a lot of

> depression issues with dealing with this at a younger age. I know

> some like melynda got is at much younger ages. So I feel guilty even

> saying all this. I never mention how I feel like I was robbed of my

> " fun years " as I don't want to feel like I'm throwing a pity party to

> my friends and family. I don't like to show my emotions, although it

> happens from time to time. I also found out recently I have

> pcos..polycyctic ovarian syndrome..which means slim chances for kids.

> I don't have any, but dearly love my 3 and 1 yr old nieces. I have

> had a few failed relationships bc they couldn't handle me being sick.

> And the dr wonders why I have depression? And I have severe

> limitations in my knee and both elbows. So I am so self concious and

> get panic attacks when I go anywhere new. Sorry about venting. I

> just wondered how others deal. I don't post very often..I get

> nervous..sounds funny..I know. I'm kinda a nut case. Oh well. Gotta

> laugh about it..when u can.

> >

> > Thanks for listening

> >

> > Central FL

> >

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Gin, and group....

 

great post .  I wanted to share something along those lines.  My sister has

a form of Lupus.  It's easier just to say Lupus.  I can pronounce the name but

have no idea how to spell it.  Anyway!!  She was told she shouldn't get pregnant

b/c of her health.  She told the doctor she wanted a 2nd child and the doctor

said she wouldn't be able to get pregnant.  She got pregnant.....Doctor told her

she wouldn't be able to carry it full term.  She did.  They said she would have

problems since whe had to go off some of her meds.  She managed.  They said the

baby would be sick.  Emmy is now a healthy 6 yr old. At delivery, my sister had

complications (and to be honest with you I don't think they were related to the

disease but b/c of the Lupus they found the problem) and they said she had a

50/50 chance.  She lived and is still fighting her disease.  Maybe not everyone

is that lucky...I know there were alot of people praying for her....but

there's always a chance, a hope.  If it's meant to be it's meant to be.  I

miscarried twins but was lucky enough to go on and have two boys.  I hope the

best for all of you in whatever you want to do.  I have a hard time with

" people " telling me I can't do something.  Maybe that 's why I struggle with my

RA so much.....because it's my own body telling me I can't do what I want it to

do!  Have a relaxing day!  Paris

Re: [ ] Re: Younger people with ra

Hi ,

I just turned 27 and I was diagnosed with systematic Lupus 2 weeks after my

19th birthday. Being young with an illness that many associate with the

elderly and helpless is the pits for sure. I have a really funny explanation

of Lupus that I give to people when they ask what it is. I tell them that my

body is a high school and my organs and my joints are like the nerdy gamer

kids and my over active immune system is like the football stars or bullies

and they're always trying to stuff my organs and or joints into a locker.

They're oppressed and picked on. It seems to highlight the finer points and

takes the seriousness out of having it, for the moment anyhow. My husband

was really worried about dating me because when I was younger I had many

more flares than I do now. I medicate with pro biotic and other herbs. I'm

pretty functional these days. After going off steroids I lost 90 pounds and

the swelling in my hands all but left leaving me able to play the piano

again.

I know how you feel, I do, I understand the constant looming fear that

someone will catch on that you're not " normal " . It takes time to get over

that. I'm super into music so I started looking for musicians that I enjoy

with health issues and took comfort in the fact that I am not alone, I still

have a chance at a life and there are many many people out there just like

me. Stuart Murdoch , singer for Belle & Sebastian, has chronic fatigue and

spent his 24,25, and 26th year suffering in his parents attic. I know of a

few jazz guitarist with early onset RA who switched to keys but kept

playing.

Anyhow who can't love you with your flaws isn't worth loving. There are

amazing men out there, it just takes a while.

I would also like to add that when I was 18 I was told that my chances of

conception were slim to none and my chances of carrying to full term were

even less.

I have two children and believe me it seems I had no trouble conceiving

them. I had cyst, endometriosis and Lupus, it was high risk for sure. There

are a lot of options out there for you when you decide to have a child,

fertility treatments, surrogacy, adoption. All things I was looking into

before my body decide to tell the doctors where to stick it.

You'll be okay and if you need anything I'm totally here.

Cheers-

Gin

On 9/3/08, Margaret <margaret.kamphorst@...> wrote:

>

>  Hi ,

> I have had it since I was 19 but it took me until this

> year to get a formal diagnosis. I'm 36 now. Finally on RA

> drugs and finally have docs that don't think I'm crazy for it.

> I've also had failed relationships due to it. One guy told me

> I was a hypochondriac and made fun of me.. called me an

> old lady.. Are you currently dating? If so how do you bring it

> up with the guys without scaring them off or making them act

> like you can't do anything yourself?? Just wondering.

> Hope today is better for you,

> Margaret

>

>

> >

> > Hi everyone..

> >

> > I just wanted to see how many of you are younger with RA? I am 27

> and was dx 11 yrs ago, just at the age of 16. I've had a lot of

> depression issues with dealing with this at a younger age. I know

> some like melynda got is at much younger ages. So I feel guilty even

> saying all this. I never mention how I feel like I was robbed of my

> " fun years " as I don't want to feel like I'm throwing a pity party to

> my friends and family. I don't like to show my emotions, although it

> happens from time to time. I also found out recently I have

> pcos..polycyctic ovarian syndrome..which means slim chances for kids.

> I don't have any, but dearly love my 3 and 1 yr old nieces. I have

> had a few failed relationships bc they couldn't handle me being sick.

> And the dr wonders why I have depression? And I have severe

> limitations in my knee and both elbows. So I am so self concious and

> get panic attacks when I go anywhere new. Sorry about venting. I

> just wondered how others deal. I don't post very often..I get

> nervous..sounds funny..I know. I'm kinda a nut case. Oh well. Gotta

> laugh about it..when u can.

> >

> > Thanks for listening

> >

> > Central FL

> >

>

>

>