I'm Beginning to Hate Mornings

September 11, 2008

Hi all. Just need to dump a bit. I don't suspect the subject of

this post surprises anyone but felt I needed to share.

Mornings are beginning to really bother me. I guess you could say I

am at my worse. Yesterday afternoon I was actually having it pretty

good. The pain and stiffness was fairly deminished and what pain I

had I felt I could tolerate. This morning we start all over again.

I strain getting out of bed and taking a shower (At least I can take

a shower). Where I work, the employee parking lot where I park my

truck is about a quarter mile from my desk. I really dread that

walk. Mornings are the worse time for this disease and my hips and

knees are at their worse in the morning. I got myself a rolling

briefcase so I no longer need to carry it but it seemed this morning,

even just pulling it behind me was a struggle. Every step was a

conscious effort.

I've been forcing myself to use the stairs since my office is on the

third floor. All in all, 52 steps. I'm telling myself to not give

in and take the elevator but not sure how long I can keep this up.

What really burns me is that 6-8 months ago I was a very active

person, both physically and as a member of the community. I

volunteer in five separate organizations and also run a 501©3

charitable organization. Charity and volunteer work has been a big

part of my life! Don't know how long I can keep that up.

The TV show, Extreme Home Makeover is in our area and since my

company donates a lot of materials to the effort, I was invited to

participate in the final building and reveal this coming weekend.

The way I feel this morning, I'm going to have to pass. I am really

beginning to hate this disease. I haven't told them no yet, but my

shift would start 6AM Saturday. I just don't see this happening.

Tomorrow, I finally see the Rheummy for the first time. I've gone

from counting the days to counting the hours.

I really used to love mornings. Hot cup of coffee, a newspaper and a

sunrise followed by a long walk. It doesn't get much better than

that. There's a cloud over my sun right now and I am praying for

better weather ahead.

Thanks for letting me vent and thanks for listening. Hope all of you

have a pain free day.

Bob

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