Guest guest Posted August 14, 2008 Report Share Posted August 14, 2008 Dodge and group; Omygosh sweetheart, I still say your my hero. I talked to a fire fighter on the phone a few weeks ago. He was collecting for the firefighters benefit. I said I would give. I listened to his entire pitch line with complete patience. I know he must of worked on it very hard. I praised him for his work. I said yes of course I will send a few dollars. He was flabergasped. Did I spell that right. He said if everyone I called sent in that much we wouldnt have to ask but every 5 years. I told him it was not really a lot and I could stay home and watch tv one saturday instead of driving a tank of gas for our firefighters. He reminded me in his speech that 4 of their best was killed in the fire in Greenvile a few weeks ago. There are 3 collectors I dont hang up on. Firefighters, police, and animail protective league. I think its been 3 years since I donated to the police mans benefit. O one more our servise men. I donate once a year to the veterans society. It's not much. I am on disability. THese guys and gals are are risking their lives for us. We can give up a couple days of gasoline for them a year or a couple months of coffee. So to speak., I am sorry that society has such a limited heart to people that are disabled or not like them. If you know what I mean. Darling I don't know what you look like or what you can do. I can see that you are so beautiful. ANd your in our hearts. You gave an important part of your life for us. THANK YOU. I hope you feel better. And your life is very important to me. I am so glad you didnt commit the suicide you didnt talk about. I have learn so much from your pain. I know what a match burn feels like. I can't even concieve what it would be like on most of my body at once. God bless you my darling friend. You don't know how wonderful you are. Love you! tender loving hugs to everyone Clora > Tonight, I'll meet some of my old buddies -- some I haven't seen BTB, (Before the Burn). We'll talk about how well I'm doing, how the pain is less, how the mental anguish of burns and AI diseases, and a changed life becomes easier to bare... > > Tonight, I'll put on my game face and pretend the world is ok, that I am not in pain, and that life is good. I won't talk about the times I get suicidal because the pain is so bad. I won't mention that people call me a " freak show " because of the burns. I won't discuss the fact that I am still not, and will never be, the man I was before. > > I'll just smile and laugh, and praise doctors, medical advances, and those few friends who stuck by me. > > I won't tell them how sometimes, after a call, I just collapse in the truck, to weak and in to much pain even to get a drink of water, which by then I desperately need. I won't talk about the indignity of not being able to be treated like a human being with real medical problems when I have a complaint, or how everything is written off to " autoimmune disease " or " burn pain " . > > I won't talk about the infections, hospital stays, ER visits, long nights wanting to die, friends who left, family who I haven't spoken to in years, people who think I should have committed suicide or those who ask me, " So, why do you want to live with all that? " > > I won't mention those at work who feel I shouldn't be working -- that I am a liability, incompetent due to pain medications, " just not right " anymore... > > I'll smile, and laugh, and say all the right things... Then, when it's over, I'll come back to my reality... Knowing that their reality isn't mine any longer, and I can't go back. > > > -- > Dodge > > An optimist thinks that this is the best possible world. > A pessimist fears that this is true. > > Read my blog at: > http://jumpthis.wordpress.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 14, 2008 Report Share Posted August 14, 2008 Dodge, Sweetie, I hope that some of the time you spend with them will be a joy to you. I think of you daily and I do want your life to be so much better. I think you are a precious human. Thank you for all you do for eveyone else. Shirley > > Tonight, I'll meet some of my old buddies -- some I haven't seen BTB, (Before the Burn). We'll talk about how well I'm doing, how the pain is less, how the mental anguish of burns and AI diseases, and a changed life becomes easier to bare... > > Tonight, I'll put on my game face and pretend the world is ok, that I am not in pain, and that life is good. I won't talk about the times I get suicidal because the pain is so bad. I won't mention that people call me a " freak show " because of the burns. I won't discuss the fact that I am still not, and will never be, the man I was before. > > I'll just smile and laugh, and praise doctors, medical advances, and those few friends who stuck by me. > > I won't tell them how sometimes, after a call, I just collapse in the truck, to weak and in to much pain even to get a drink of water, which by then I desperately need. I won't talk about the indignity of not being able to be treated like a human being with real medical problems when I have a complaint, or how everything is written off to " autoimmune disease " or " burn pain " . > > I won't talk about the infections, hospital stays, ER visits, long nights wanting to die, friends who left, family who I haven't spoken to in years, people who think I should have committed suicide or those who ask me, " So, why do you want to live with all that? " > > I won't mention those at work who feel I shouldn't be working -- that I am a liability, incompetent due to pain medications, " just not right " anymore... > > I'll smile, and laugh, and say all the right things... Then, when it's over, I'll come back to my reality... Knowing that their reality isn't mine any longer, and I can't go back. > > > -- > Dodge > > An optimist thinks that this is the best possible world. > A pessimist fears that this is true. > > Read my blog at: > http://jumpthis.wordpress.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 14, 2008 Report Share Posted August 14, 2008 Wow, Dodge!! I sincerely hope you enjoy your time with your buddies tonight and I pray that they see that the " Old Dodge " is still in there in spite of the burns and AI diseases. You are an inspiration, dear one. I would truly hope that others would see you for the inspiration that you truly are rather than the misconstrued opinions of what they " think " . None of those opinionated people can even begin to know what you go through on a daily basis and I can't help but wonder whatever happened to the old addage that " if you can't think of something kind to say, say nothing at all " ? People are cruel, but YOU, dear one, are stronger than them all!!! God Bless you Dodge.............Doreen > > Tonight, I'll meet some of my old buddies -- some I haven't seen BTB, (Before the Burn). We'll talk about how well I'm doing, how the pain is less, how the mental anguish of burns and AI diseases, and a changed life becomes easier to bare... > > Tonight, I'll put on my game face and pretend the world is ok, that I am not in pain, and that life is good. I won't talk about the times I get suicidal because the pain is so bad. I won't mention that people call me a " freak show " because of the burns. I won't discuss the fact that I am still not, and will never be, the man I was before. > > I'll just smile and laugh, and praise doctors, medical advances, and those few friends who stuck by me. > > I won't tell them how sometimes, after a call, I just collapse in the truck, to weak and in to much pain even to get a drink of water, which by then I desperately need. I won't talk about the indignity of not being able to be treated like a human being with real medical problems when I have a complaint, or how everything is written off to " autoimmune disease " or " burn pain " . > > I won't talk about the infections, hospital stays, ER visits, long nights wanting to die, friends who left, family who I haven't spoken to in years, people who think I should have committed suicide or those who ask me, " So, why do you want to live with all that? " > > I won't mention those at work who feel I shouldn't be working -- that I am a liability, incompetent due to pain medications, " just not right " anymore... > > I'll smile, and laugh, and say all the right things... Then, when it's over, I'll come back to my reality... Knowing that their reality isn't mine any longer, and I can't go back. > > > -- > Dodge > > An optimist thinks that this is the best possible world. > A pessimist fears that this is true. > > Read my blog at: > http://jumpthis.wordpress.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 16, 2008 Report Share Posted August 16, 2008 Dodge - Glad to hear you made it through your evening relatively unscathed. Don't give those rude people a second thought. Continue to be grateful for those who " got it " - they are your true friends. You were brave and rather " in their face " by going in shorts - was that your intention?..........Doreen > > Doreen: > > Some of them got it. That's something to be thankful for, God knows. Out of those that didn't, well, there was some pity, which I don't like but can deal with, and some revoltion, which I absolutely can't handle. A lot of curiosity. A lot of questions they wanted to ask and didn't, and a lot of open mouths when I saw their questions in their eyes and answered them without them even having to ask. > > I didn't wear any pressure garments and I decided to wear shorts, which means the true extent of the burns was very, very visible. > -- > Dodge Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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