Heredity Issue

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I hope someone out there can help me to deal with feelings that are

causing me a lot of stress, which we all know is not good. I am 58, &

was dxd with RA about 4 years ago, although I've probably had it much

longer. My daughter was dxed with it about 10 years ago. I am

blessed that my medicine combination keeps my pain under control so

that I can maintain a pretty normal life. My daughter considers

herself in remission, although she occasionally has some issues. Her

firstborn was my first grandchild, & I love that little boy more than

I can explain in a posting.

This precious grandson of mine is now 11 years old, & was dxed with

Juvenile RA a few months ago. He is getting the best of care,@ Texas

Children's Hospital in Houston. They are treating it aggressively, &

have him up to 8 units of MTX. My daughter says that the next step

would be Enbrel.

I really am a strong Christian, & I know the obvious answers. I know

I can't BLAME myself. However, I am so heart broken that I somehow

feel responsible for what may be a crippling disease for him. A

grandmother wants to take credit for her grandchildren's beautiful

eyes, or smile, not a crippling disease! If anyone out there has any

words of wisdom, I could sure use them. I am not doubting my faith,

or questioning God. I don't want any drugs to help me cope. I take

enough drugs now! Maybe somebody knows of a book, or a movie, or

just words of encouragement.

Thanks in advance!