Re: Tomorrow/ Sharon

[Guest guest]

Hi Sharon: Yes it is scary when we don't know what is going on with us

at times. It seems we imagine the worst, then run with it, making us so

sick with worry, before we know the whole truth and what we have or not

have. I too, am a worrier, and I do myself in. I try not to do this to

myself anymore. It takes too much out of me. I make myself wait and

see, and try to keep happy thoughts on my mind. It is less stressful

for me.

Melynda did the same thing, and scared herself to death. It took so

much out of her, no wonder she couldn't get out of bed. She had no

strength left. See what we do to ourselves.......... not good at all.

I just try to take things slower, minute by minute if I have to, and day

by day when I have to. Otherwise, I can't function. Most everyone here

knows what I am going through at home everyday, and I will tell you, it

is very hard to keep good thoughts in my mind. But I do do it. I need

some peace of mind, otherwise I can't function.

Wishing you all less stressful days, so you can function better. And of

course, pain free days. I care.

Hugs,

Barbara

--- In , Melynda Gamez <melyndagamez@...>

wrote:

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> hello sharon, don't we WISH everything was simple but it's not!!! i

know tests can b scarry but we just have to have FAITH & stay

> POSITIVE. i had a nuclear study done which is like a ct but more

thorough. the tests came back showing i could

> possibly have cancer of the spine. so in turn i cried for days thought

about my family & just made myself SICK TO DEATH.

> a few days later the results came back NEGATIVE & i thought to myself

what HELL i literally put myself through.

> i know it's not easy but try to stay positive till all is said &

done.....

> my prayers r w/u sharon.. god bless, melynda gamez

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> Tomorrow I'm having a CT scan of my left orbit and an xray of my right

rib

> cage. I am trying to be positive but the truth is that I am scared to

> death. They are both such odd areas and they showed up on a bone

scan.

> What the heck could they be? I had my bone scan report faxed to my

> hematologist, who is also an oncologist, just in case. I mean my

> rheumatologist knows about arthritis and things like that and I figure

it

> can't hurt. He didn't deny the fact that it could be cancer. He said

I

> don't think so but I want to get more tests. I want to cry and I want

to

> scream and I don't even know what is wrong yet. Why is it that

nothing is

> ever simple?

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> Sharon

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