Re: RA MAKES ME SOOOOOOO MAD!!!!/KD

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KD,

((((HUGS))))) You are allowed to be mad, angry, pissed, whatever you want to

call it! This disease SUCKS!!!!! The waiting for the meds to kick in is the

hardest part. You will then be able to experience things in a whole new light

and develop a new appreciation for things. I know I have. I sat on my kitchen

floor and cried the morning I could not peel a banana...... Now when I open one

I think... " Today is going to be a GREAT DAY! "

I found venting my frustrations out here helped me ALOT. And please try not to

feel guilty..... You will make up for things when you feel better.

*~ Kami ~*

[ ] RA MAKES ME SOOOOOOO MAD!!!!

OK ... I'm so frustrated and mad with RA right now! I'm tired of being

tired and I'm tired of hurting!

A couple weeks ago I tried to have a fun day with my daughter riding horses

... which is something we've been doing together for a couple years and I

absolutely love the time we get to spend together ... but, since my RA

diagnoses I've had a hard time having enough energy. A couple weeks ago I

had to stop and just watch (after sitting in my car and crying) because I

just couldn't do any more. It was still great to watch my daughter, but

nothing like sharing the fun with her.

And tonight ... I just tried to carve a small pumpkin with my son. By

small, I mean the diameter is only about 6-8 inches. I had the hardest time

even cutting the top off! My hands are killing me now. After cutting it

off and emptying the " guts " I had to tell my son we would have to wait to do

any more.

I know things will get better once I'm on the right meds, but I'm so just

freaking angry right now!!! I feel like I'm losing time with my husband and

both of my kids!!! I don't really want to say " why me " because if it wasn't

me it would have to be someone else and I don't wish this on anyone. But

... why does it have to be so hard?!?!

Have others of you gone through this type of anger, frustration, pity ...

whatever you want to call it??? What did you do to help get past it?

Thanks for letting me vent .......

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