Guest guest Posted June 29, 2008 Report Share Posted June 29, 2008 Just got off the phone with my Bada(brother) and now I know how most of you feel talking with your out of control Nadas. I had taken my son to see his grandmother and my bada came up with his daughter. Everything seemed to be going all right when my son wanted to go swimming in the kiddy pool and we invited my neice to play as well. My brother turned us down and said that he didn't want anything to interfere with her nap. I was irritated because everytime that we want to do something it's her nap that seems to get in the way. My son's feelings were hurt and that irritated me even more, but I kept my mouth shut. My brother proceeded to spend another hour at my nada's house before packing up and going home. I called him wanting to try and schedule some time this coming weekend so that the cousins could get together and perhaps do some swimming. I don't know how it happened but the next thing I know my bada is screaming at me over the phone telling me that he will not have me questioning his parenting decisions. I had told him that my son's feelings had been hurt and that it seemed to be an on going result of our get togethers. I also told him that in order to avoid this in the future that we should plan some play dates. Much screaming over the phone. I do my best to remain calm but it was very hard. Same thing that happens every time I try to be honest with my brother and work things out. It is always his way and no one else need participate. I should know better. According to him I take things too personally, it is all my fault and that he has been so noble in that he has been walking on eggshells around me. Sound familar? He basically told me that I am selfish, that I am lazy and that I am out of control and that he had had enough of it. Never mind the last time I contacted him to let him know how his behavior was affecting me was 15 years ago. Same reaction then as now. He never takes responsibility for what he does, what he says and even when confronted with his behavior blows it off as if it is nothing. Everytime I pulled the conversation back to how it made my son feel, he turned the conversation back on me. I honestly don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. Nothing is going to change it will always be my fault. He likes to humiliate me and I told him that if he didn't want me to take things personally, to not try to humiliate me in front of family. Of course, I am taking things too personally. That came up alot in the conversation. My problem is that I am going to have to deal with him, until my nada dies. According to him, I am supposed to keep my mouth shut and not do anything to react to anything he says. According to him no one else has any problems with him. According to him the rest of the family is as tired of me as he is. He doesn't want to hear anything more about my feelings and that if I don't shut up he will cut me out of his life. He obviously thinks that is a threat. I'm looking at it like an invitation. I honestly don't know what to do. I am already LC with him. I cannot go NC without setting off my mother and things are starting to get better there. No doubt he is on the phone with her and now there will be hell to pay. Same conversation, over and over and over again. He is right, I do need to stop taking offense at what he says and does. I need to let go of the fantasy of what a normal family is, but that dies hard. And this is the last piece to fall. I just need to keep in mind that what I do I do for me and my family, and keep any contact with my brother and his family as minimal as possible. On a positive note, I gained an understanding as to what my bada really thinks of me and it confirmed everything I ever suspected. I can work with that. I may need to go into therapy to help me sever all ties with him and help me cope with the attacks to come. I saw the true face of my bada tonight and I realize that my future will not include him. I was orphaned a long time ago and these people are strangers to me. My brother told me tonight that I had it easy all my life and that his life was very hard with my parents. They made him do things and if he was sloppy about it they got on his case. I told him that I believed that he had a hard life, but that he should not think that I had it easy. He told me that I didn't know what I was talking about. So much for meeting him half way. I now understand what kind conversation most of you have with your nadas. It is every bit as horrible as you portray it to be. Right now I'm not mad, but somewhat resigned. This will be the last time I reach out to my bada. He is too caught up in his own reality to understand the damage he does. He doesn't want to understand it. It doesn't register with him. He can only see his side of it and he pretty much went out of his way to try and beat me down. This time I didn't go there. I am starting to understand the peace NC brings. If anyone has any suggestions or similar stories, I am all ears. Thanks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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