what a present!

[Guest guest]

I need to vent about something that happened last night...

So for my graduation my mom got me a plane ticket to visit her in her

new house. She did this knowing that the the day after Christmas (the

semester before I graduated) I was kicked out of my father's house and

became homeless for a few nights. After sleeping with friends and in

cars, my bf and i moved into a run down tiny room in a 'communal'

house. aka a glorified dorm with strangers. I shared a room which was

just big enough for a bed and dresser/desk. The rent was cash and i

was working and going to school full time to pay cash for my part of

the rent that i could barely afford(the only way it was accepted). We

had mice and a horrible ant infestation all over the kitchen.

eventually all of the amenities broke too. NOT a good situation.

Knowing this, for graduation she decided to give me one of her plane

voucher tickets. I told her that although i was thankful, I was

temping and i didn't know if i would have a job, another place to

live, or where i would be in my life upon graduating..that i couldn't

guarantee i could even come see her at all this summer for vacation.

She calls me last night to tell me the ticket expires in a month. Now

i have a new job with no time off as a new-hire. She just does not

understand and she keeps trying to guilt trip me by saying " I will

NEVER do this again. I can't believe i tried to do something nice for

you....etc " She claims i'm so ungrateful...and a spoiled brat. so last

night i felt pretty down.

the worst part is I have my own beautiful apartment now and am making

it by ok. i actually got a great job and she doesn't even care. She

doesn't know what i do and doesn't care. I am the youngest hire in one

of the biggest most profitable companies in my field and she can't

suck it up and tell me she's proud of me. Not once, not ever. It

hurts. I haven't heard from her in a month and she's stopped answering

her phone. When i finally hear from her its becuase of this stupid

plane ticket. Why is it that she is never there? whether i need her or

not, she is just never there...Sometimes I blame myself that I'm not

working hard enough, but it never seems to matter in the end.

I guess i feel a little better, thanks for listening.