Advice for Nada's Birthday

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I have had absolutely no contact with nada for 2 weeks {since I

discovered that she stole my identity). I haven't spoken to her

(verbally)for about a month and a half. I have decided that nothing

good has ever come from my relationship with her, all she does is give

me hell or drag me through it. Despite the guilt I sometimes struggle

with, I no longer want her to be involved in my life.

My issue is that her birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks. Part

of me says, so what? Why should I care? If I open the door again by

sending her a card, she will just take that as an invitation to stomp

back into my life. The other part of me says that she is still my

mother and I should wish her happy birthday, and I can still keep the

beast at bay by refusing to have contact with her in other ways.

I've taken a lot of advice from a recovering alcoholic I know and made

myself some " no contact totems " . I love to make jewelry, so I made

myself a symbolic bracelet, a cell phone charm, even a hanger for my

front door! I hang them around like garlic to ward off vampires. They

actually help me a lot when I get the self destructive urge to try to

contact nada, and with the blind fear I sometimes feel when the phone

rings. The problem is, I never made one for the mailbox, and now I'm

not sure what to do? Any advice? Anyone else regretted doing or not

doing something like this?