Re: my profile

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Hi Jo,

Love your after shot. You look fantastic. What a silhouette!

I've been considering spending the two weeks of the school holidays down at

my sister's place at Byron Bay. I'm feeling so down at the moment and I

have a lot of decisions to make re the band. I think a good stiff daily

dose of ozone at the beach

and a little slap of luxurious living (and drinking) will be the best for

what ails me. I've also decided to put clothes and hair on the backburner

until I know what I'm going to do. I've got an appointment to see Kim about

the constipation problem and I think I will ask her about getting the water

removed from the band so I can eat again. I've got to do something. I'm

going nuts - particularly when it doesn't seem to make any difference to

whether I lose or not, and just makes me feel so sick all the time. I can't

see the sense in keeping this stupid thing in. But I will try to be

sensible and get the water removed first to see if I can control myself

with some food rather than this slop I've been forcing down my gullet for

the past three years. I would love to be able to go on a diet again - to

eat salads and grilled meats - plan a well balanced diet instead of soups,

slush and a chemist shop of tablets. If I can, then I think the band will

go.

If not, then I guess I just have to weigh up whether I want to be slim,

constipated, tired, haggard and so dispirited; or fat, strength back and at

least getting some joy out of life even if it's only with a salad roll (or

a cream bun as the case may be). I don't think it is a crazy way to be

thinking. I really don't. As I was telling Geri, I don't think I can live

for the rest of my life like this.

So I guess I'll just coast along and think it out. So if you don't mind,

I'd rather leave the hair and the clothes ( ie. a glamorous new me) go

until I can be sure that that is the way I want to go, and whether I can

face more interminable months of the same

despairingly sick and tiring life.

Thank you so much for your offer. I know it is probably a very good idea

and I really appreicate your wanting to share it with me. But I am really

in the wrong frame of mind to think of a slim future at the moment - all I

can think and dream about is food

and waking up in the morning feeling refreshed, non-refluxed and ready to

greet the day (and the toilet bowl) with some positive energy.

Keep on truckin'. I'll be checking to see those new photos on your profile.

Dianne

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> To: ozbandegroups

> Subject: my profile

> Date: Tuesday, 5 September 2000 0:19

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> Hi all,

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> Thanks to I am now on the profiles on the web page. The photos

> aren't great but they were all I had. I am now 13kg lighter than in the

> latest shot. I hope to get an updated photo on my birthday.

>

> To the Brisbane gang thanks for a great meeting on Saturday.

thanks

> for the venue. I just love getting together with you guys.

>

> Jo

> Banded 1/12/1997

> Starting BMI 48

> Current BMI28

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