Wayne's recipes

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Hi all,

I just became a new member of the Brisbands group last June meeting and

finally got onto this site last weekend. A short introduction - lapbander

for three years, loss of 72 kgs and still some to go ........ Be brave,

Dianne ........ 30 kgs to go. Whew! Which gives you some idea of presize.

Life-long biggie (ie. since childhood a long, long time ago) which has

brought up some very interesting social, emotional, behavioural factors

during this process which I believe relate to the fact that I am not

rediscovering the " real me " but meeting me for the first time. This has

been a very exciting, rewarding but at times scary process and it is so

great to finally after three long years of self-doubt, panic and loneliness

to find a support group (and you do- I've just been going through your

emails of the last six months). It's good to have a chuckle when I think

back over all the fears and concerns I felt before, when and after the band

was put in, and to realise that we are all experiencing much the same

thing. Am so glad to finally after all these years to have the chance to

meet and present to the world the real me that has been hiding in here over

all these years. Trouble is there are only a few people who know about my

lapband so I cannot explain to my work colleagues and acquaintances what

has happened and why I am turning into this happy, social, gorgeous (vain,

and loving it!) and for the first time in her long life, right out there

person. Still it's not over yet and I am still counting down the kgs and

worrying about refills and reflux and vomiting - Yep it still goes on and I

must admit I belong to the " soft food brigade " - It is so great to sit out

in public and eat a slice of cheesecake with my skinnichino. Sure beats

never ever being seen in public putting food into my mouth (even lunches at

work) and taking out a whole frozen cheesecake at night. The most important

thing I've gained from the whole lapband process is that I have lost my

fear of food. I read the Lap Study put on the site last Sunday and

while we do need to have access to such important

research (thank you, ), I think the psychological changes are

important too.

Would love to hear from other lifetime biggies who are also ringing the

changes in this way. Love the idea of meeting nationally - Like Bruce's

idea of meeting down south next year (I want to start travelling) and in

Qld in 2002.

Cheers

Dianne