Re: Hi All/Long/Sorry/Val

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Val,

Thanks for picking on with me, it gave me a chuckle and I needed that!!! I did explain to him AGAIN last night why it hurt and he apologized AGAIN, but sometimes sorry is just a word to him, like it is to Zack who is 5!

I never even thought to put it in the terms of having him think of the things I've given up by having MS. He always says he would take the MS from me if he could, but he can't and I would NEVER allow anyone to do that, not even my worst enemy. He's very good at tap dancing it seems. Avoidance is a mainstay for him.

He started on his Stratera this morning so we'll see how that goes. He says he feels "wierd". Not sure what to make of that.

Hugs

Peggy> > Hi Everyone,> > > > Sorry I've been missing quite a few posts here in the past few > days. > > It's been a rough week or however long it's been sicne i posted. > Not > > so much with me really as with my son zack. He has ADHD and ODD and > > it has really been coming through and his behavior lately has been > > bad and taking every ounce of energy and strength i have plus what > i > > don't have to deal with him.> > > > first, let me tell you about my neuro appt. with the new doc. He > was > > wonderful even though i only say him for about 15 minutes. Even his > > nurse and he knew the dr. i was talking about and both rolled their > > eyes when i said his name and agreed that he was a wacko, lol!!! He > > told me that I do have new lesions although I didn't get a chance > to > > ask them where they were as I was basically standing in the middle > of > > the hall in a paper gown with my behind hanging out, not a pretty > > site I'm sure! He said it was a relapse I had in November which we > > basically already knew. He did say something interesting to me > > though. That when i was taken off of Avonex tht i should have gone > to > > a higher interferon like Rebif before going to Copaxone and the > > relapse may have not happened. Otherwise he says I am doing good. I > > go back to see him in 3 months where i hope to be able to ask him > the > > questions i hoped to ask him then. My appt. was so late in the day > > that he was a little rushed. My next appt. is at 9 in the morning I > > think.> > > > Now, about my awful time with Zack. I'm at my wits end with him. I > > have come so close in the past week to physically hurting him and > > feel like the worst Mother ever. He has just been taken off of > > Risperadol which he was on for ODD and now takes half of a pill > > of .25 mg of Zoloft in the morning for anxiety and depression. This > > was based on the schools evaluation of him as we are going through > > thr re evaluation process because his teacher suggested it. So now > > he's been evaluated but they are not removing him from kindergarten > > which is good but his behavior at home has been soooo bad I'm > beside > > myself.> > > > has been gone for about 4 days and Zack trashed the house > > Friday night and I was on the 2nd day of a migraine and my eyes > were > > hurting again and I was in bed waiting for alicia got home from > work > > and within about 10 minutes time of me not watching him my living > > room was covered with all this little shredded paper from a basket > I > > got for my birhtday that I was letting the kitten sleep in. It > wasn't > > just in the living room but the whole house. I had to leave it, I > was > > so upset and exhausted as he's also been getting up at 2 and 3 in > the > > morning and not going back to sleep until 6 and then getting up at > 9 > > or ten, at least on the weekedn. Even yesterday I had to take him > > into school because he was up at 3 am and we overselfp and he > missed > > the bus. It took me over and hour on saturday to vacuum the mess up > > and then I turn around and vacuum the rest of the house and what > > little stuff was left in the basket he threw around again. > GGGRRRR!!!> > > > At one time he even thought he was going to stand up to me and > > gritted his teeth and stood up and had his fists clenched with his > > arms down at his sides and wouldn't sit down like I told him to and > > even when I stood over him(which is not by very much as I'm only > > 4'9") the little snot wouldn't sit!!! All I could think was, "Oh no > > he's not!!!!!" Now i'm wondering wht the heck am i going to do when > > he is taller than me, which won't be long now, and stronger than > me, > > which he is now when he's in a rage. I finally had to put him in > his > > room and close the door which I hate to do because it terrifies > him, > > he hates to be alone and he just is so scared to be closed in > > anywhere. When he finally came out he came right to me and asked > for > > a hug because he said that would make him feel better. Of course > that > > made me feel 100% worse and I just broke down crying and apologized > > to him and kept saying that I wish he wasn't like this and I wish I > > could make it better.> > > > To top it all off is being a complete, well you know and he's > > home now and I'm glad he's home but I'm not. Does that make sense? > > We've been fighting alot lately and I don't know why, it feels like > > he just doesn't get me anymore. It bothers me that he doesn't want > to > > listen to how I feel. He tries to tell me that he's trying to learn > > more about MS which I know is a lie. I've been with him for more > than > > half my life, I know when he's lying to me. I'm a pretty good lie > > detector with most people. I tried to tell him this morning that it > > doesn't even have to do with learning about MS it has to do with > > learning how MS affects ME. It's how it makes me feel. He tells me > > that he asks me every day how I'm feeling. Well he's talking about > > the physical, I need him to support the emotional part of the MS. > He > > just doesn't get it. We've already had a fight this morning and he > of > > course thuned it around on me as usual, shift the blame, story of > his > > life. Well, he can shift the blame but he's only shifting it from > one > > of his shoulders to the next because I'm not taking it anymore. He > > was wrong and he knows it and that's why he's shifting the blame. > > He's going to the dr today himself to be tested for ADD so > hopefully > > he can get some answers and possibly some medicine to help him > there. > > I don't know if it will make a difference in what is going on > between > > us, I doubt it, but at least it will help him.> > > > I think I'm going to go back to bed now, even though I hate to do > it > > because it's beautiful outside, they're calling for record highs > > today, possibly 65!! My trees and flowers weill be all messed up > > again, my lilac tree on the side of the house already has buds on > it, > > HELLO, it's January!!!! Don't get me wrong I love the warm weather > > but they're calling for snow tomorrow. I hate NY weather. I know > Kate > > is with me on this!!!!> > > > I'm sorry this was so long, I've just been so frustrated and have > > only been on to basically read emails and junk. My New Years > > resolutions are not panning out too well. I'm supposed to be > happier > > this year. It's the 8th of January and I think I've cried every day > > so far. To top it off, my washing machine is croaking, the knob to > > set the washer is stripped so I have to turn it with a pair of > > hemostats, my vacuum is clogged(hopefully can fix that), and > I > > have blisters all over my hands from trying to get the toilet > > unclogged, that took 3 days, why I don't know. Tomorrow I am going > > out to lunch with a girlfriend. She is shocked that I'm actually > > venturing out and she won't take no for an answer now that I've > said > > yes. She'll hunt me down if I try to back out which is probably > good > > for me.> > > > I'll try to catch up with you all I promise. just made a > > comment about me being on the computer though and I told him I have > > to get support and compassion and understanding someplace. I also > > said if I wasn't on the computer he'd be on it and at least I'm > doing > > something productive, not just playing solitaire. I really think I > > should go back to bed. Better to keep my mouth shut today I think.> > > > Hugs to all,> > Peggy> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Euphemisms are unpleasant truths wearing diplomatic cologne. > ~Quentin Crisp~> > > > ---------------------------------> > Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage.> >> > > > > > > Euphemisms are unpleasant truths wearing diplomatic cologne. ~Quentin Crisp~> > ---------------------------------> Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage.>

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Peggy~ The next time he says he's sorry, and you feel like he's just saying it to appease you, ask him why. See if he can tell you why he's sorry. If he can't tell you why, or gets indignant about the question, you'll know right away that he's not listening. I used to let Tom and others get away with either flipping the script, or start an altercation. I'd meekly back down and let it drop. I don't do that anymore. To everyone who has noticed the change in me, I'm known as the "bitter old lady". To me, I don't feel bitter, I feel like I've taken my power back. It was mine in the first place who are they to take if from me? Don't mind me...Just one of those, "I feel good about myself tonight!!" nights. Love and

blessings... ValPeggy wrote: Val, Thanks for picking on with me, it gave me a chuckle and I needed that!!! I did explain to him AGAIN last night why it hurt and he apologized AGAIN, but sometimes sorry is just a word to him, like it is to Zack who is 5! I never even thought to put it in the terms of having him think of

the things I've given up by having MS. He always says he would take the MS from me if he could, but he can't and I would NEVER allow anyone to do that, not even my worst enemy. He's very good at tap dancing it seems. Avoidance is a mainstay for him. He started on his Stratera this morning so we'll see how that goes. He says he feels "wierd". Not sure what to make of that. Hugs Peggy> > Hi Everyone,> > > > Sorry I've been missing quite a few posts here in the past few > days. > > It's been a rough week or however long it's been sicne i posted. > Not > > so much with me really as with my son zack. He has ADHD and ODD and > > it has really been coming through and his behavior lately has been > >

bad and taking every ounce of energy and strength i have plus what > i > > don't have to deal with him.> > > > first, let me tell you about my neuro appt. with the new doc. He > was > > wonderful even though i only say him for about 15 minutes. Even his > > nurse and he knew the dr. i was talking about and both rolled their > > eyes when i said his name and agreed that he was a wacko, lol!!! He > > told me that I do have new lesions although I didn't get a chance > to > > ask them where they were as I was basically standing in the middle > of > > the hall in a paper gown with my behind hanging out, not a pretty > > site I'm sure! He said it was a relapse I had in November which we > > basically already knew. He did say something interesting to me > > though. That when i was taken off of Avonex tht i should have gone > to

> > a higher interferon like Rebif before going to Copaxone and the > > relapse may have not happened. Otherwise he says I am doing good. I > > go back to see him in 3 months where i hope to be able to ask him > the > > questions i hoped to ask him then. My appt. was so late in the day > > that he was a little rushed. My next appt. is at 9 in the morning I > > think.> > > > Now, about my awful time with Zack. I'm at my wits end with him. I > > have come so close in the past week to physically hurting him and > > feel like the worst Mother ever. He has just been taken off of > > Risperadol which he was on for ODD and now takes half of a pill > > of .25 mg of Zoloft in the morning for anxiety and depression. This > > was based on the schools evaluation of him as we are going through > > thr re evaluation process because his

teacher suggested it. So now > > he's been evaluated but they are not removing him from kindergarten > > which is good but his behavior at home has been soooo bad I'm > beside > > myself.> > > > has been gone for about 4 days and Zack trashed the house > > Friday night and I was on the 2nd day of a migraine and my eyes > were > > hurting again and I was in bed waiting for alicia got home from > work > > and within about 10 minutes time of me not watching him my living > > room was covered with all this little shredded paper from a basket > I > > got for my birhtday that I was letting the kitten sleep in. It > wasn't > > just in the living room but the whole house. I had to leave it, I > was > > so upset and exhausted as he's also been getting up at 2 and 3 in > the > > morning and not going

back to sleep until 6 and then getting up at > 9 > > or ten, at least on the weekedn. Even yesterday I had to take him > > into school because he was up at 3 am and we overselfp and he > missed > > the bus. It took me over and hour on saturday to vacuum the mess up > > and then I turn around and vacuum the rest of the house and what > > little stuff was left in the basket he threw around again. > GGGRRRR!!!> > > > At one time he even thought he was going to stand up to me and > > gritted his teeth and stood up and had his fists clenched with his > > arms down at his sides and wouldn't sit down like I told him to and > > even when I stood over him(which is not by very much as I'm only > > 4'9") the little snot wouldn't sit!!! All I could think was, "Oh no > > he's not!!!!!" Now i'm wondering wht the heck am i going to do when >

> he is taller than me, which won't be long now, and stronger than > me, > > which he is now when he's in a rage. I finally had to put him in > his > > room and close the door which I hate to do because it terrifies > him, > > he hates to be alone and he just is so scared to be closed in > > anywhere. When he finally came out he came right to me and asked > for > > a hug because he said that would make him feel better. Of course > that > > made me feel 100% worse and I just broke down crying and apologized > > to him and kept saying that I wish he wasn't like this and I wish I > > could make it better.> > > > To top it all off is being a complete, well you know and he's > > home now and I'm glad he's home but I'm not. Does that make sense? > > We've been fighting alot lately and I don't know why, it feels like

> > he just doesn't get me anymore. It bothers me that he doesn't want > to > > listen to how I feel. He tries to tell me that he's trying to learn > > more about MS which I know is a lie. I've been with him for more > than > > half my life, I know when he's lying to me. I'm a pretty good lie > > detector with most people. I tried to tell him this morning that it > > doesn't even have to do with learning about MS it has to do with > > learning how MS affects ME. It's how it makes me feel. He tells me > > that he asks me every day how I'm feeling. Well he's talking about > > the physical, I need him to support the emotional part of the MS. > He > > just doesn't get it. We've already had a fight this morning and he > of > > course thuned it around on me as usual, shift the blame, story of > his > > life. Well, he can shift

the blame but he's only shifting it from > one > > of his shoulders to the next because I'm not taking it anymore. He > > was wrong and he knows it and that's why he's shifting the blame. > > He's going to the dr today himself to be tested for ADD so > hopefully > > he can get some answers and possibly some medicine to help him > there. > > I don't know if it will make a difference in what is going on > between > > us, I doubt it, but at least it will help him.> > > > I think I'm going to go back to bed now, even though I hate to do > it > > because it's beautiful outside, they're calling for record highs > > today, possibly 65!! My trees and flowers weill be all messed up > > again, my lilac tree on the side of the house already has buds on > it, > > HELLO, it's January!!!! Don't get me wrong I love the warm

weather > > but they're calling for snow tomorrow. I hate NY weather. I know > Kate > > is with me on this!!!!> > > > I'm sorry this was so long, I've just been so frustrated and have > > only been on to basically read emails and junk. My New Years > > resolutions are not panning out too well. I'm supposed to be > happier > > this year. It's the 8th of January and I think I've cried every day > > so far. To top it off, my washing machine is croaking, the knob to > > set the washer is stripped so I have to turn it with a pair of > > hemostats, my vacuum is clogged(hopefully can fix that), and > I > > have blisters all over my hands from trying to get the toilet > > unclogged, that took 3 days, why I don't know. Tomorrow I am going > > out to lunch with a girlfriend. She is shocked that I'm actually > >

venturing out and she won't take no for an answer now that I've > said > > yes. She'll hunt me down if I try to back out which is probably > good > > for me.> > > > I'll try to catch up with you all I promise. just made a > > comment about me being on the computer though and I told him I have > > to get support and compassion and understanding someplace. I also > > said if I wasn't on the computer he'd be on it and at least I'm > doing > > something productive, not just playing solitaire. I really think I > > should go back to bed. Better to keep my mouth shut today I think.> > > > Hugs to all,> > Peggy> > > > > > > > > > > > > > Euphemisms are unpleasant truths wearing diplomatic cologne. > ~Quentin Crisp~> > > >

---------------------------------> > Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage.> >> > > > > > > Euphemisms are unpleasant truths wearing diplomatic cologne. ~Quentin Crisp~> > ---------------------------------> Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage.> Euphemisms are unpleasant truths wearing diplomatic cologne. ~Quentin Crisp~

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