In tons of pain and having med side effects

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Hi All.

I have been taking 1/2 of my Lortab 7.5s that an ER doc gave me for

migraines. I have been taking it for the back/neck pain. I take one half

about 3 or 4 times per day now. I only took one today, this morning around

9:30. It is 3:30pm right now and I have not yet taken another one.

I am in so much pain in my neck it is unbelievable. It is not quite bad

enough to go to the ER, but it is tremendous. I would take another half of a

lortab, except I am having side effects from them. I get really sleepy at

first for the first hour or so as it starts to work, then it works for about

2 or 3 hours without side effects, but then I get really zoned out and

dissociated and really irritable and agitated as it wears off.

I'm guessing the irritability and agitation are withdrawal symptoms? I do

not want to become addicted to pain medication, I REALLY do NOT, but right

now the medicine is the only thing allowing me to be able to function even a

little bit. I am not going into work again today because of the pain. It has

been nearly 3 weeks now (will be tomorrow) that I have been off from work

for either migraine or back/neck pain.

I hate feeling this uncomfortable. And there's nothing to do at home except

sit on the computer and surf the Internet (I'm a fan of reading about pain)

and check email all day long. But the email is slow right now, hardly any

new ones in the last 2 or so hours (or it feels like 2 hours anyway) so I

feel really alone. I don't have any close friends where I live even though

I've lived here over 3 years now. And it's a major metropolis, too. Plus

I've been attending my university for a full year this week, and still only

know about 5 other students at my school--but they ALL graduated THIS week,

and some if not all of them are moving away now. So, no chance to make close

friends with them and still have them in town for months and years to come.

I just don't remember how to make friends. I haven't been this introverted

since I had to leave the last city where I lived and had to move in with my

mother due to financial reasons (i.e., when the economy crashed in 2007). I

had to leave my school and all of my 200+ friends and acquaintances in my

last city and move here where I knew NO ONE and STILL know almost NO ONE.

And sitting here alone in my apartment all day every day for three weeks and

not leaving to go ANYWHERE except doctors appointments is REALLY taking its

toll on me.

I don't know what to do with myself right now. And the medicine is making me

so out of it that I can't go into work. I wish that NSAIDS would work for

me, but they don't even TOUCH the pain, even though I am on 500mg of

Nabumetone 3x per day. It just isn't fair.

I also think that I am/have been going through the stages of grief the past

week and a half or two weeks. Up until yesterday, I was feeling incredibly

hopeless, dejected, and depressed. Then yesterday I started feeling really

angry. It's not fair!! Why me?! Why at my young age of only 26 friggin'

years old do I have to suffer from this kind of pain!!!!!!???????

I just wish I had somebody who I could call who could come over to my

apartment and comfort me. Cr*p, now my sciatic nerve is acting up again.

This just totally sucks. I need someone to come over to my apartment and

take care of me, but I have NO ONE except my mom, and she has NO time

because she's ALWAYS either traveling for work or busy doing other things.

Besides, I need someone BESIDES her sometimes, too. I can't talk to my mom

about everything; some things I can talk to other people about better. I

want someone MY OWN age to come to my apartment and just " hang out " with me.

This email has gotten too long. I am going to stop now. I hope I can get

some responses, or at least gentle hugs and comfort. I need some. I don't

think prayer is working or is going to work any more. I don't think I am

EVER going to stop being in pain. I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!!!

Whatever That's all for now. Thank you for reading, and to those who do

respond. I am going to go potty and get something to eat now. Thank you.

e.h.