Same Old Answers

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Hello all,

I just got a message from my therapist. My therapist who tells me that

all

my problems stem from my family, that I need to attend AA, that I need

to

keep jobs no matter what, even if I have no interest in them and am

getting walked on. He told me he was leaving for Indianapolis. For

some work

engagement. He works 3 or 4 jobs. Is married to a counselor and has

several

friends from AA.

During my last visit with him, I told him I was sick of pretending I'm

alright, that I wanted him to help me be happy. Not by giving me

telling

me to adjust my medication or by telling me to attend AA. I told him

after

4 years I was tired of crying for help and getting the same old answers.

His response to my plea for help? He wants to refer me to a

psychiatrist

who can prescribe medication and do psychotherapy, and he wants me to

go to

AA again.

What an original idea: so, just as I expected, when I confront

someone affiliated with AA they cast me off. I was very emotional

during

are meeting, crying, getting angry. I think that bothered him. AA

doesn't

teach anyone how to handle emotions. So, he decided it was time to pass

me on. Do you all know how many times I've been sent to a psychiatrist?

Needless to say, going to an MD and getting medication isn't exactly an

original idea on how to help me.

But as I've gotten older my tolerance for this so called " help "

has

gone way down. I've just figured out I've got to take care of myself.

Because no one else is gonna protect me. If I want to stop suffering I

need to stop it. Not a sponsor or a therapist or the government. Its

up to me. Society isn't real kind to people that can't keep up or who

ask for help.

I'm just tired of getting walked on. Sure my family is awful and

has

neglected me for my whole life. But there just part of the problem.

In my view, all of society is to blame. So for me to concentrate on

just

my family or just alcohol is a waste of time.

Matt