Having issues with my family not understanding why or how I have chronic pain.

July 6, 2011

My dear sister just posted to my facebook that I broke my leg and finger. LOL

That's so funny because I was hit head on by a drunk driver.

None of my family including her stayed at the hospital with me and she dared to

negate my pain saying I was healed and should be thankful.

This was because I asked everyone to not drink and drive over the holidays. I

must have hit a nerve because was just told she has started drinking daily.

In actual fact my injuries were extensive. Head injuries with 47+ stitches in my

face alone.

My eyes were cut up from the glass blinding me for over a week until they

healed.

My left clavicle was in pieces and had to be put back together with a metal

plate.

My index finger was broken and the whole thing was 2 inches shorter because it

was shoved back into my hand.

I had all the bones in my right foot crushed.

Bone spurs on my sternum and both rotator cuffs torn.

Left femur was an open compound fracture and there is a plate, screws,

surgical wire, outdated rod that has gone through the tendon in my hip.

I was in a wheelchair for 2 1/2 years and was told I would never walk again.

Funny that she didn't remember all those injuries or that I was alone the whole

time at the hospital. Hmmm I wonder why they never knew how bad my injuries were

or that all my veins in my arms collapsed.

Plus the fact that I ran a high fever when they forced blood into my one good

vein that was found after 17 missed attempts. Or the fact that my nurse sat with

me all night because no family was there and my chances of making it were only

40%.

Of course God has blessed me with life but healed? Where on earth did she get

that from? I told her since she hasn't been around me for the last 17 years even

though she lived next door how could she know me? Her loss not mine!

None of my family has bothered asking about any of that ever. Maybe because they

didn't want to think of how it would have hurt them if they had been in my

shoes? Not just physically but the emotional toll of no one being there?

I don't demand love or help like they all do. I made it through that hell and am

doing just fine without them all! Funny how my friends knew all these things

about me but none of my family? Family seems to expect me to help but never

expect them to be there if you need it.

As I told her I don't feel sorry for myself because that is self defeating. I do

however tell it like it is and am in constant pain daily. Her response was to

tell me she prays for me! Told her I pray for the whole family.

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