Re: [c_p]Missing jobs, professions/ Marriage /Bennie/reply to her

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Dear Bennie,

I am 32 going to be 33 years old in December. Touching is also

important to my husband and I too. A hug, a stroke of the arm, a rub of the

shoulders, kisses on the lips, for example. I won't say more than that on this

subject as it is generally one I keep to myself. Most of my pain is in my back

and it can go into my pelvis and bottom. The amitriptylne takes some of the

edge off at 50mg however being on my back is still quite the problem.

I let my husband know about my fears and concerns whereas he is

more closed off about such things. He tends to accept more how things are or

maybe he pushes it away and forgets it. I take his word for it that he accepts

things. Whereas I have apologized not like a broken record but I have apologized

especially when I am in off the charts pain and tell him I love him and

appreciate all he does. We dated for six years and been married for two years.

I am really feeling the strain of our marriage together. I know

it is rough on him as on I for things to be as they are. I really

appreciate your message and the others I got as well. I hope my husband and I

can work through this and things will improve. He is a very special guy and the

closest to the man I had in my mind as my ideal. However, I am also aware pain

has caused our relationship to strain. I just have to see how it will all go.

He has been away in upper Michigan real close to Canada. I expect him back

tomorrow late afternoon. I had wanted to go with him to see his parents. They

are great people but I am not physically able to make the trip so I came to stay

with my parents because of deep depression and anxiety. Thankfully the second

is more under control. As to the first I have my moments of control and other

times not.

It is a rough journey but I know I will get through it. Just

how things will ultimately be time will tell. I of course will keep the group

informed.

Christy