Guest guest Posted September 8, 2011 Report Share Posted September 8, 2011 This morning as I'm getting ready for work I'm brushing my hair, putting moisturizer on my face, brushing my teeth and I'm biting the bullet. Internalizing the pain. PUSHING THROUGH IT. Then it hit me. I can't remember a time when I haven't pushed through the pain. Sometimes it can be so subconscious. I don't even know that's what I do because I've done it so long. What are my other choices? Make a face in pain, fall down writhing in pain on the floor. Well I don't have time for that. I have to get to work! What is it like to not be in pain. What is it like to NOT have to push through the pain? What does surrendering to the pain really mean? Giving up on life. Well I can't do that. Emotionally accepting that you will always be in pain. Well I thought I've already done that. It's almost the same idea as forgiveness. I can say the words, and think I mean it, but my heart will still hurt, and it will always feel the same. Surrendering and forgiveness seem to be concepts my heart just can't get around. Anyways, just rambling on some thoughts going through my head this morning. I hope everyone has a better pain-free day than me today! Cheers! -Crystal Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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