Im in seroius trouble

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Hello all, many of you dont know me as I dont post very often. I just wanted

to let you all know what is up with me. My life is in the toilet! I had an

open rny 11-9-99 and am now at my goal weight of 145 at 5'9 I was 290. I

have tried every diet and nothing has worked for me long term as I was a

compulsive over eater. The day I had my gastric bypass I think the dr did

some work on my brain also. From the time I got out of the hospital I

couldnt eat. (Not sure if I was afraid or what) I had to have another rny

patient come to my house and eat with me. (I guess I needed PERMISSION to

eat) Well to make a long story as short as possible.....Everyone was asking

me what i was doing to lose this weight so fast. My answer used to be that

it was just coming off. Well In June it started to take its toll on my

body. The reason is I dont/cant eat. My mind wont let me. I have been having

severe stomache pains since June. I saw many doctors and nobody could find

the problem. Family and friends were telling me I was anorexic and that i

looked awful. I thought they were nuts.I was /am sick every day. I WAS NOT

anorexic i was eating i would tell them. The truth is I was NOT eating

(maybe 4-5 bites for a " normal " person a day!!) But i thought that was

eating. I went back to the ER yesterday and told them what was going on.

SO as of today I am trying to take back my life. They are putting me in a

partial hospitalization eating disorder program. I know that if i eat my

stomache pains will go away but my mind wont let me eat. I CAN BE IN SUCH

PAIN AND KnOW all I have to do is go eat something but i CANT> They

suggested I sip ensure to get something in my body but I have only been able

to sip 1/2 a can. At times I can eat just enough (3-4) BITES to make the

pain go away...then i feel guilty! So i went from one extreem to another.

Sorry this is longer than I wanted to write. I just wanted to let my WLS

family know where I stand. I will try to make the meeting this

thursday..think i need all the support i can get...thanks for listening.

KELLY

dr thayer

290/145/145