Re: Legalizing candy and peanut butter. (long, as usual lol)

[Guest guest]

abouttwodays,

This is fantastic!!!! What a huge step forward! It's like, so IE!

You really noticed how you were feeling while eating the candy bars,

you made a concious choice to eat the last one, and you didn't get

upset with yourself. And now you plan to keep them on hand. How

perfect.

And, congratulations on renewing your love affair with peanut butter.

Trying to normalize your relationship with it and not trying to just

stay away from it is wonderful!

You've really inspired me today!

~Jen S.

> I bought them all today. I ate them all today!

>

> Surprisingly enough I'm not upset at myself. I'm just glad I only

> bought four!

... I think it's pretty cool though that even before/while I

> was eating it, I did notice I didn't really want it or enjoy it all

> that much (it was yummy but not amazing) but I still made the

> conscious choice of eating it. I think that may be part of why I'm

> not so upset with myself right now as I was totally aware and

> " forgave " myself ahead of time.

>

.... Keeping candy stocked is now my goal.

....> On a super good note, I think I'm building a very peaceful

> relationship with peanut butter. > Just thought I'd share my happy

little experiences, especially since

> most of my posts are regarding feeling awful for binging...thought

I'd

> throw something good in here for once!

>

[Guest guest]

Crazy as this may all feel at this moment, I would say you made some

progress there too. ehugs, Katcha

>

> I am leaving for Florida on Friday and I have been craving candy like

> no other. So I decided to buy 4 candy bars, one for tonight, Tuesday,

> Wednesday, and Thursday.

>

> I bought them all today. I ate them all today!

>

> Surprisingly enough I'm not upset at myself. I'm just glad I only

> bought four!

>

> I have been really craving sugar. Chocolate in particular, which is

> interesting because I haven't ever been a huge chocolate eater.

> Anyway, I have yet to identify why I was/am craving so much sugar.

> The only thing I can pinpoint for today was the fact that I had taken

> medication last night that made me super drowsy. I have a hard time

> sleeping when I binge (which is what I did last night) so I was

> tossing and turning throughout the entire night, and then I was woken

> up by garbage people at 8 this morning so I barely got any sleep. In

> addition to this, I still had a drowsy hangover type issue from the

> meds and I've been worn out all day. So maybe it was really my mind

> saying " sugar! carbs! energy! " when my body was saying " sleep!

> please! " even though it knows that once my eyes open in the morning,

> they're not going to close again until it's dark and I'm doped up on

> Tylenol PM no matter how hard they try. That's the only thing I can

> really think of.

>

> To be honest though, I didn't really WANT all four candy bars. I ate

> one of them just because it was there and I had already eaten the

> three I really wanted. I didn't enjoy it, but finished it up " just

> because. " I think it's pretty cool though that even before/while I

> was eating it, I did notice I didn't really want it or enjoy it all

> that much (it was yummy but not amazing) but I still made the

> conscious choice of eating it. I think that may be part of why I'm

> not so upset with myself right now as I was totally aware and

> " forgave " myself ahead of time.

>

> In the past I'd say that I obviously can't control myself around candy

> and that it needs to be forbidden...banned from the household.

> Tomorrow I'm going to hunt down some reese's pieces because those just

> sound fabulous. Keeping candy stocked is now my goal.

>

>

> On a super good note, I think I'm building a very peaceful

> relationship with peanut butter. Once a triggering food that was only

> consumed when I binged, it is now something that I enjoy on a regular

> basis in much smaller (yet surprisingly satisfying) portions. In

> fact, I had it twice today! Not saying that it isn't something I

> binge on anymore, as it takes part in every binge I have, but it's not

> something that I am afraid of. At one point in time, I actually

> convinced myself that it was the most disgusting thing in the world

> and didn't touch it for months! After starting to follow IE, I

> allowed myself to taste it again. At first I was iffy. I'm in love

> all over again lol. I really do like peanut butter, and I'm very

> happy that I have been able to work it back into my life without being

> afraid of it or giving it more power than I should. Taking that hold

> off of peanut butter was something that I never thought would

> happen...I figured it was a lost cause. Seeing that I could do it

> gives me so much hope for other foods.

>

>

> Just thought I'd share my happy little experiences, especially since

> most of my posts are regarding feeling awful for binging...thought I'd

> throw something good in here for once!

>