Guest guest Posted January 7, 2008 Report Share Posted January 7, 2008 Today is one of those days. I feel sad right now, like I could cry over what I just did. It didn't seem like a binge as it was happening, but I just stood in the kitchen and looked for more and more food. Even if something didn't taste good, I still ate it. This morning I woke up early to take my sister to work. I wasn't hungry for quite a while and then I called the dentist and they said they could take me in right away. I figured I'd be back really soon since they said it would just be a consultation, so being that I wasn't really hungry and didn't have time to eat I figured I'd eat when I got back. I had the worst drive of my life there (accidentally ran a red light - it used to be a 4 way stop and I didn't realize it had changed, had to wind my way through tons of construction and got lost and wound up on the wrong side of the road with a car coming right at me...I was lucky to get to the dentist in one piece.) They wound up refilling a tooth and numbing up my mouth. Needless to say that they put me into a room only to switch me into another with a huge spider crawling up the wall...I am the textbook definition of an arachnophobic. I got home and couldn't eat because my mouth was completely numb. I finally wound up having " breakfast " around 2. My mouth was still halfway numb so I could honestly barely taste what I was eating, even though it was something I had been craving yet restricting for quite a while. I exercised for 45 minutes, got really frustrated over a few other things, refrained from binging immediately, but then went at the food full force. I didn't want to listen to any hunger/fullness signals. I had quite a bit of food in one sitting, yet still not enough to totally fill me up beyond stuffed. I actually feel " comfortably full " right now yet I've already consumed well over any " calorie limit " and it's not yet even 5pm. I just hate these days. I hate when I don't care and when I can't even force myself to just stop for one second and think if I REALLY want that food or not. They are getting farther apart, and some days are not as bad as others, but they're so frustrating regardless and even though I know they're not, they FEEL like a huge set back. It's depressing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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