Re: Do you wonder if you'll ever learn? Underlying anxiety?

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> I get to thinking, WHEN will I ever learn? How many binges will it

> take for me to realize I need to eat more during the day, and eat more

> in general? How many pounds will I have to gain before I take that

> step to deal with my emotions in ways other than eating?

I so understand what you are saying here. I too wonder if I will get

totally 'get' back into a genuine, 'normal' IE pattern of eating. I

have just re-picked up the Foods & Feelings Workbook and re-starting

back at chapter 1. I found myself 'bored and distracted' - sound

familiar?!? Well I plodded thru 2 chapters and while I was reading

chapter 1 I wanted to EAT! But after finishing the second chapter, I

found that I wasn't as driven to eat as when I started! Yep, dealing

with emotions is one aspect of IE that I know I have to master if I'm

going to 'get' the whole program working for me.

>

> So now I'll have nightmares tonight and bruisey feeling skin tomorrow

> as this always happens after a binge. I'm just so frustrated! Not

> really feeling guilty about it, just sick of it you know? Yet I still

> feel helpless, as though I'm not the one who can help myself overcome

> this. I still don't trust myself.

Isn't it sad that we don't trust ourselves?!? Like who knows better

what and how much to eat for our body's needs than ourselves???

Certainly science can make measurements and calculations, but when all

is said and done its a personal matter and only you and your body can

really KNOW what is right for it. All external input is opinion ;-)

>

> Also, I wonder if I've got some underlying anxiety. I'm leaving for

> Florida on Friday and I'm meeting my fiance's entire family and a

> bunch of friends. I'm attending his mother's wedding! I'm scared to

> death of planes and I'm going to be on one for 4 hours. My jeans are

> snug but when I went to buy more I couldn't find ANY that fit me well

> enough to spend the money on. I think I've been gaining weight and my

> demented mind says his family and friends will reject me for being x

> number of pounds, which I know deep down is irrational but what can I

> say? I'm not necessarily trying to use this as an excuse for binging,

> but I really can't think of much of a reason as to why I felt like I

> needed so much food tonight. It was comforting. It felt good. It

> doesn't now, but it did.

>

> *sigh*

Yes food it the old stand by comforter. But in the long run it only

'fills' the (emotional) need with a feeling (stuffed?!?) satisfaction.

It can and never will satisfy what you want that is NOT food. Just be

yourself and if that's not good enough for others, then its THEIR

loss. Just don't do a face plant into the wedding cake and all will be

fine - LOL!!

Ehugs, Katcha