Guest guest Posted January 13, 2008 Report Share Posted January 13, 2008 I get to thinking, WHEN will I ever learn? How many binges will it take for me to realize I need to eat more during the day, and eat more in general? How many pounds will I have to gain before I take that step to deal with my emotions in ways other than eating? So now I'll have nightmares tonight and bruisey feeling skin tomorrow as this always happens after a binge. I'm just so frustrated! Not really feeling guilty about it, just sick of it you know? Yet I still feel helpless, as though I'm not the one who can help myself overcome this. I still don't trust myself. Also, I wonder if I've got some underlying anxiety. I'm leaving for Florida on Friday and I'm meeting my fiance's entire family and a bunch of friends. I'm attending his mother's wedding! I'm scared to death of planes and I'm going to be on one for 4 hours. My jeans are snug but when I went to buy more I couldn't find ANY that fit me well enough to spend the money on. I think I've been gaining weight and my demented mind says his family and friends will reject me for being x number of pounds, which I know deep down is irrational but what can I say? I'm not necessarily trying to use this as an excuse for binging, but I really can't think of much of a reason as to why I felt like I needed so much food tonight. It was comforting. It felt good. It doesn't now, but it did. *sigh* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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