bloggy observation

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Today I went and signed off on my gym membership. I haven't gone in

ages, and my membership ended 3 months ago, but you have to go in and

cancel in person or they keep on debiting your account.

I have avoided going in because I knew they would ask me why and I

knew that I would be ashamed of being the fat woman not working out.

Anyway, this IE process, this forum, the books I am reading, etc.

have given me some courage so I went in this morning to cancel.

As I expected, I was questioned as to why I wasn't attending anymore

and why I wanted to cancel.

I told the lovely, rail thin and super fit woman that I was " moving

in a direction that didn't include a focus on losing weight, and that

gym excersize was too inextricably connected with dieting for me to

have it do me any good at all " .

You should have seen the look on her face. She was very nice and

pretended to get it, but it was clear she was completely gobsmacked.

Why would a fat woman not want to focus on weight loss?

I considered giving in to embarassment, but in the end I decided to

ignore the looks (there were a couple of other gym goers within

earshot) and walk out with the courage of my convictions.

So there!!!