Hi all, i'm back again (stillbirth ment.)

[Guest guest]

Hi. sorry I have been gone so long again. We had an open house on

Saturday to welcome Matt to the family (here at our house, but hosted by

my SIL and my sister) and the funeral for the baby from our church that

was stillborn was also Saturday.

I have been very drained (emotionally and physically). I feel so

helpless and frustrated that I can't do more for and that

offer them my sympathy and let them know I am here if they need

anything. Their daughter's name is Isabel and she was one of

the most beautiful baby girls I have ever seen. She looked like a

sleeping princess.

I am still adjusting (or trying to !) to having 2 kids rather than

one. I think the 5 year age difference is making it harder, as Ross is

so independent now, that we are not used to the total dependence of a

newborn. DH has forgotten that having a baby actually physically

attached to your body (for nursing) for half an hour to 45 minutes at a

time every 3 to 4 hours is rather limiting.

Matt is slowly starting to go longer between feedings during the day

(about 3 -3 1/2 hours) and sleep a little longer at night (averaging 3

1/2 to 4 hours the first stretch and about 2 each time after that until

morning), but I am still a little sleep deprived.

Have finally caught up w/ all of the e-mail and hope to stay on top of

it a little better, but I apologize in advance if I don't, as Ross'

birthday party is next week and Matt's baptism is June 3rd, so I will be

busy with those.

Kendall - Mom to

Ross - 5 (or will be 5/18 !)

Mattson - 4 weeks yesterday