Tough Day for IE

[Guest guest]

I have been sharing periodically the little successes I have had and

now must share how off track Easter weekend went. It all started

with a French Silk pie that I bought due to my son and new wife

visiting on Saturday. They had already eaten at her mother's so were

really not hungry. I urged them to have pie so I could justify

cutting into it. If we didn't I could have taken it to the family

Easter dinner next day. 2 slices later I lost the ability to tell

fullness. I got into the trap of needing to 'punish' myself so had

just small bit of pasta salad I made for the upcoming dinner.

I am afraid this started that whole 'Last Supper' kind of eating as

sugar tends to overide my natural hunger signs for some reason. I ate

things I didn't really want and pledged to exercise when I got home.

I am viewing this as a 'slip' much like an alcoholic who drinks after

being in recovery.

So...back on track today. I will listen to the signs of my real

physical hunger and honor it. Hard to not beat myself up though.

I watched I Can Make You Thin and am starting to see it as

rather 'gimmicky' as opposed to IE. I plan to keep watching it but

the game show aspect is hard to take.

Love to All in this Awesome Group. Deb

[Guest guest]

Deb, I can so relate to this experience! It sadly takes a while before

all the things we 'know' about IE (food is food, don't best yourself

up etc.) get into our acceptance within ourselves. I too have often

felt 'fallen from the wagon' when I KNEW I was eating non-IE, but just

couldn't change it while in that state of eating. Besides saying that

YEP! I've done this and felt very much like you do at this moment, I

will also say that this does lessen in time and frequency. I'm

currently in such a state myself, but I know now that its due to my

'chewing' on something emotional that I've yet to find a way to deal

with. Meanwhile I am eating and mentally smacking myself too! Yet I

can also keep the comfort of knowing that I will apply IE as I can and

that's the important part.

The French Silk pie sounds lovely, I would have wanted a slice myself!

I think you need to pat yourself on the back for being able to

recognize how this entire event played out for you and while the

result isn't what you would have wanted it to be, you DID learn from

it. That's an IE step too

ehugs, Katcha

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> I have been sharing periodically the little successes I have had and

> now must share how off track Easter weekend went. It all started

> with a French Silk pie that I bought due to my son and new wife

> visiting on Saturday. They had already eaten at her mother's so were

> really not hungry. I urged them to have pie so I could justify

> cutting into it. If we didn't I could have taken it to the family

> Easter dinner next day. 2 slices later I lost the ability to tell

> fullness. I got into the trap of needing to 'punish' myself so had

> just small bit of pasta salad I made for the upcoming dinner.

>

> I am afraid this started that whole 'Last Supper' kind of eating as

> sugar tends to overide my natural hunger signs for some reason. I ate

> things I didn't really want and pledged to exercise when I got home.

> I am viewing this as a 'slip' much like an alcoholic who drinks after

> being in recovery.

>

> So...back on track today. I will listen to the signs of my real

> physical hunger and honor it. Hard to not beat myself up though.

>

> I watched I Can Make You Thin and am starting to see it as

> rather 'gimmicky' as opposed to IE. I plan to keep watching it but

> the game show aspect is hard to take.

> Love to All in this Awesome Group. Deb

>