'Round the houses' to Mckenna

[Guest guest]

In spite of his glaring title 'I can make you thin!' - his approach has done a

lot of shaking

me out of my most recent bout of 'diet thinking'.

My journey looks like this:IE/normal eating/normal weight/no diet thinking or

issues, etc. Steroids- Weight goes up dramatically and rapidly, health goes down

also

dramatically.Then followed to years of doctors, tests, infections, niggling

illnesses, etc,

and having no life because I was basically too sick and tired all the time. I

didn't like the

weight, but it was the least of my problems.

About 18 months ago I got a diaganosis - not by a doctor - but from someone

sharing

their experience and 'what worked for them' which I was able to then ask my doc

about

and get on teh proper treatment. for over a year I put thoughts of my weight out

of my

head and concentrated on getting better.

A couple of months ago, we started talking about going 'home' for a visit. Panic

ensued.

the thought of 'everyone' seeing me after three years and me looking like

'this'. Imagining

what they would think - 'she certainly has let herself go' or even 'well, that

is what living in

America will do to you'- I started for the first time in years - thinking about

a <gasp>

diet.

Diets can be like flypaper. They sometimes just want to keep sticking to you no

matter

how hard you try to peel them off. I joined this list to help counteract those

thoughts, but

they were still sticking to me in places.

Then I stumbled on the Mckenna videos on youtube. No matter that his goal

is

admittedly to help people lose weight, his method is IE. And for some reason the

things he

said finally helped me to shed the last remnants of diet thinking. I was finally

able to stop

thinking about losing weight - to just say 'well, this is me' and accept it. To

once again,

actually accept me and to make my goal about the journey(self acceptance and

eating in

tune with my body) and how I feel right this minute - *not* the destination

(weight loss)

I dont' care what he calls his show or his book - or how much he talks about

weight loss -

it's marketing as far as I'm concerned and it's what will attract the masses -

so much the

better - more people will learn about IE. But it changed me, and I am really

looking

forward to seeing his show this weekend.