Guest guest Posted August 19, 2000 Report Share Posted August 19, 2000 Malisa, Welcome to the group so sorry you had to find us under such sad and difficult circumstances. You will soon find that everyone here is very caring, knowledgable, comforting, and consoling. I have only been a member for 3 months (give or take) and I have been helped and guided in so many ways I am hoping you too will benefit from all the ladies in the group. Please feel free to cry, scream, vent, etc. anytime we will all help and listen whenever you need us. The hurting, grieving, and saddness will start to go away soon..Do not get me wrong you will NEVER forgot or stop wondering, but the pain will subside soon. I am sorry to hear that you bf (boyfriend) does not quite understand your feelings or emotions at this time maybe if the 2 of you had a heart to heart things may be easier maybe even better for both of you. Hugs to you, e > >Reply-To: ectopicpregnancyegroups >To: " 'ectopicpregnancyegroups' " <ectopicpregnancyegroups> >Subject: Introducing myself >Date: Sat, 19 Aug 2000 12:58:55 -0500 > >Hello everyone, > >My name is Malisa. It gave me great comfort to find this site. I felt I >was not alone in the way I was feeling. I lost my baby at 8 weeks. I am >two and a half weeks post-op from my surgery. My surgery was August 2, >2000. I am 38 years old and single. This was my first pregnancy. I did >not think that I could get pregnant. > >It all started when one day, my stomach was in pain, and I started >spotting. >I went straight to the emergency room. I sat in the emergency room for 3 >hours bleeding and in pain. I thought I was having a miscarriage. The >emergency room personnel were not sympathetic to what was happening to me. >They just told me if I was miscarrying there was nothing they could do, >which I knew this, but I needed something for the pain and the bleeding. >Finally, they took me back for a doctor to see me. They did an ultrasound, >lab work, cath me and told me that they did not see anything by ultrasound >in my uterus or tubes. My Beta HCG test indicated that I was far along >enough for them to see something. No one caught this. I was sent home to >expect a miscarriage (this was Saturday). That following Monday I was >bleeding worse and in more pain. I went to the doctor, and underwent more >lab tests and ultrasounds. They sent me to our Perinatal Center to have a >more extensive ultrasound and saw a mass in my right tube. It was then >that >they told me I had an ectopic pregnancy. I was sent to have a Methotrexate >shot. All I keep thinking was that my baby was being destroyed. I said >good-bye. The following Wednesday, my pain was more severe and the >bleeding >was worse. I went into the doctors office again, they did another >ultrasound and saw that my tube had enlarged. > >I was rushed into surgery, so I had no time to prepare emotionally. I was >told that they may not be able to save my tube, and they may have to do a >more extensive surgery. I said good-bye again. I was asked if I wanted to >have children. My family lives three hours away from me and my boyfriend >could not get there in time before I went into surgery. So, a very nice >lady from my doctors office stayed with me during the preparation to have >the surgery. A laparoscopy was done, and they removed my baby from my >right >tube. They were able to save my tube. I am having a HSG performed in 6 >weeks. I know I should be thankful that my tube was saved, but I cannot >help feeling sad and cheated. > >Now, I feel an emptiness, and I do not know how to deal with a lot of my >emotions. I usually deal with my feelings, stress, and emotions by going >to >the gym and roller skating. Now, I am recovering from my surgery and I >cannot do those things for another week, which makes things worse. My >boyfriend does not understand how I am feeling, he just tells me to get >over >it and quit dwelling in the past. My family thinks I am too emotional. > >My boyfriend, has a 2 year old daughter, and he just got some new pictures >of her that he showed me and it made me cry, because watching his face so >happy and proud of her, it made feel so empty and cheated because of my >loss. I do not know how I am going to deal with this, and I feel that he >has not been there for me emotionally throughout everything that I have >been >through. > >I still cry sometimes, I am trying to be strong. I think about the times >that I would talk to my baby, telling him that I will take care of us(I >always felt it was a boy). It brings me to tears to write this. > > ________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 19, 2000 Report Share Posted August 19, 2000 Malisa, Welcome to the group so sorry you had to find us under such sad and difficult circumstances. You will soon find that everyone here is very caring, knowledgable, comforting, and consoling. I have only been a member for 3 months (give or take) and I have been helped and guided in so many ways I am hoping you too will benefit from all the ladies in the group. Please feel free to cry, scream, vent, etc. anytime we will all help and listen whenever you need us. The hurting, grieving, and saddness will start to go away soon..Do not get me wrong you will NEVER forgot or stop wondering, but the pain will subside soon. I am sorry to hear that you bf (boyfriend) does not quite understand your feelings or emotions at this time maybe if the 2 of you had a heart to heart things may be easier maybe even better for both of you. Hugs to you, e > >Reply-To: ectopicpregnancyegroups >To: " 'ectopicpregnancyegroups' " <ectopicpregnancyegroups> >Subject: Introducing myself >Date: Sat, 19 Aug 2000 12:58:55 -0500 > >Hello everyone, > >My name is Malisa. It gave me great comfort to find this site. I felt I >was not alone in the way I was feeling. I lost my baby at 8 weeks. I am >two and a half weeks post-op from my surgery. My surgery was August 2, >2000. I am 38 years old and single. This was my first pregnancy. I did >not think that I could get pregnant. > >It all started when one day, my stomach was in pain, and I started >spotting. >I went straight to the emergency room. I sat in the emergency room for 3 >hours bleeding and in pain. I thought I was having a miscarriage. The >emergency room personnel were not sympathetic to what was happening to me. >They just told me if I was miscarrying there was nothing they could do, >which I knew this, but I needed something for the pain and the bleeding. >Finally, they took me back for a doctor to see me. They did an ultrasound, >lab work, cath me and told me that they did not see anything by ultrasound >in my uterus or tubes. My Beta HCG test indicated that I was far along >enough for them to see something. No one caught this. I was sent home to >expect a miscarriage (this was Saturday). That following Monday I was >bleeding worse and in more pain. I went to the doctor, and underwent more >lab tests and ultrasounds. They sent me to our Perinatal Center to have a >more extensive ultrasound and saw a mass in my right tube. It was then >that >they told me I had an ectopic pregnancy. I was sent to have a Methotrexate >shot. All I keep thinking was that my baby was being destroyed. I said >good-bye. The following Wednesday, my pain was more severe and the >bleeding >was worse. I went into the doctors office again, they did another >ultrasound and saw that my tube had enlarged. > >I was rushed into surgery, so I had no time to prepare emotionally. I was >told that they may not be able to save my tube, and they may have to do a >more extensive surgery. I said good-bye again. I was asked if I wanted to >have children. My family lives three hours away from me and my boyfriend >could not get there in time before I went into surgery. So, a very nice >lady from my doctors office stayed with me during the preparation to have >the surgery. A laparoscopy was done, and they removed my baby from my >right >tube. They were able to save my tube. I am having a HSG performed in 6 >weeks. I know I should be thankful that my tube was saved, but I cannot >help feeling sad and cheated. > >Now, I feel an emptiness, and I do not know how to deal with a lot of my >emotions. I usually deal with my feelings, stress, and emotions by going >to >the gym and roller skating. Now, I am recovering from my surgery and I >cannot do those things for another week, which makes things worse. My >boyfriend does not understand how I am feeling, he just tells me to get >over >it and quit dwelling in the past. My family thinks I am too emotional. > >My boyfriend, has a 2 year old daughter, and he just got some new pictures >of her that he showed me and it made me cry, because watching his face so >happy and proud of her, it made feel so empty and cheated because of my >loss. I do not know how I am going to deal with this, and I feel that he >has not been there for me emotionally throughout everything that I have >been >through. > >I still cry sometimes, I am trying to be strong. I think about the times >that I would talk to my baby, telling him that I will take care of us(I >always felt it was a boy). It brings me to tears to write this. > > ________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 19, 2000 Report Share Posted August 19, 2000 Malisa, Welcome to the group so sorry you had to find us under such sad and difficult circumstances. You will soon find that everyone here is very caring, knowledgable, comforting, and consoling. I have only been a member for 3 months (give or take) and I have been helped and guided in so many ways I am hoping you too will benefit from all the ladies in the group. Please feel free to cry, scream, vent, etc. anytime we will all help and listen whenever you need us. The hurting, grieving, and saddness will start to go away soon..Do not get me wrong you will NEVER forgot or stop wondering, but the pain will subside soon. I am sorry to hear that you bf (boyfriend) does not quite understand your feelings or emotions at this time maybe if the 2 of you had a heart to heart things may be easier maybe even better for both of you. Hugs to you, e > >Reply-To: ectopicpregnancyegroups >To: " 'ectopicpregnancyegroups' " <ectopicpregnancyegroups> >Subject: Introducing myself >Date: Sat, 19 Aug 2000 12:58:55 -0500 > >Hello everyone, > >My name is Malisa. It gave me great comfort to find this site. I felt I >was not alone in the way I was feeling. I lost my baby at 8 weeks. I am >two and a half weeks post-op from my surgery. My surgery was August 2, >2000. I am 38 years old and single. This was my first pregnancy. I did >not think that I could get pregnant. > >It all started when one day, my stomach was in pain, and I started >spotting. >I went straight to the emergency room. I sat in the emergency room for 3 >hours bleeding and in pain. I thought I was having a miscarriage. The >emergency room personnel were not sympathetic to what was happening to me. >They just told me if I was miscarrying there was nothing they could do, >which I knew this, but I needed something for the pain and the bleeding. >Finally, they took me back for a doctor to see me. They did an ultrasound, >lab work, cath me and told me that they did not see anything by ultrasound >in my uterus or tubes. My Beta HCG test indicated that I was far along >enough for them to see something. No one caught this. I was sent home to >expect a miscarriage (this was Saturday). That following Monday I was >bleeding worse and in more pain. I went to the doctor, and underwent more >lab tests and ultrasounds. They sent me to our Perinatal Center to have a >more extensive ultrasound and saw a mass in my right tube. It was then >that >they told me I had an ectopic pregnancy. I was sent to have a Methotrexate >shot. All I keep thinking was that my baby was being destroyed. I said >good-bye. The following Wednesday, my pain was more severe and the >bleeding >was worse. I went into the doctors office again, they did another >ultrasound and saw that my tube had enlarged. > >I was rushed into surgery, so I had no time to prepare emotionally. I was >told that they may not be able to save my tube, and they may have to do a >more extensive surgery. I said good-bye again. I was asked if I wanted to >have children. My family lives three hours away from me and my boyfriend >could not get there in time before I went into surgery. So, a very nice >lady from my doctors office stayed with me during the preparation to have >the surgery. A laparoscopy was done, and they removed my baby from my >right >tube. They were able to save my tube. I am having a HSG performed in 6 >weeks. I know I should be thankful that my tube was saved, but I cannot >help feeling sad and cheated. > >Now, I feel an emptiness, and I do not know how to deal with a lot of my >emotions. I usually deal with my feelings, stress, and emotions by going >to >the gym and roller skating. Now, I am recovering from my surgery and I >cannot do those things for another week, which makes things worse. My >boyfriend does not understand how I am feeling, he just tells me to get >over >it and quit dwelling in the past. My family thinks I am too emotional. > >My boyfriend, has a 2 year old daughter, and he just got some new pictures >of her that he showed me and it made me cry, because watching his face so >happy and proud of her, it made feel so empty and cheated because of my >loss. I do not know how I am going to deal with this, and I feel that he >has not been there for me emotionally throughout everything that I have >been >through. > >I still cry sometimes, I am trying to be strong. I think about the times >that I would talk to my baby, telling him that I will take care of us(I >always felt it was a boy). It brings me to tears to write this. > > ________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 14, 2008 Report Share Posted April 14, 2008 Hi all, I joined here last week, and I'm just getting used to the format! I bought the IE book last year, and after going back to Weight watchers and not succeeding, and trying other diets with no success, I'm finally DONE with dieting. I'm so worn out from it all. I've hit the wall, so to speak! So here I am. I want to be an intuitive eater, which is exactly how I USED to be when I was my thinnest! How in the world did I get out of that mode? Anyhow, because I've been " dieting " for years now, its taking me some time to get back to " normal " . I did VERY well this weekend, but thoughts of calorie consumption, etc. keep popping into my head. I'm really focusing on eating only when I'm hungry, but darn, sometimes that is tough. What is tough is KNOWING when I'm really hungry. I also am working on eating until satisfied, which is another obstacle. But I know that over time, I will get better at it. Anyhow, I am not someone with a lot of weight to lose. About 10-15 lbs is really all I'd like to lose. And if it means it takes a year or so to lose that, but through IE, I'm good with that. I simply want my life back from the mental consumption of dieting all the time. I hope to get to know you all better! Jeannie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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