RE: venting, whining, loosing it!

[Guest guest]

Kami,

Sorry you are feeling bad---both

physically and emotionally. I hope the neuro visit went OK.

Will keep you in my prayers.

Connie B

From:

MSersLife [mailto:MSersLife ] On Behalf Of Kami

Sent: Tuesday, April 22, 2008 3:23

PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: venting, whining,

loosing it!

Hi everyone, I just needed to check in with

everyone... well really I need to vent/whine...! I had such a

horrible night last night with bladder infection like symptoms, but way worse

than I had ever felt. I was feeling scared and alone, and not

knowing if I should go to ER, so I called Rob, my " boyfriend " who had

just several days before told me he wants to see other people, or break up

(because we " don't do enough together " , translation, I've been too

sick and its put a damper on his life).

But he came and stayed with me. I

went to Urgent care this morning and luckily got a very thorough dr. I

have a raging UTI. So now I'm home for a few hours (called in sick to

work), then this afternoon I have my neuro appt to go over my MRI results.

I am so nervous about this, And my bladder hurts, and I have chills...

UGH, I wish I didn't have to drive myself there, and then pick up my son

because I could really use to take some pain meds and/or antianxiety med.

Anyway, I had picked up my MRI report, and

I wasn't going to read it until I saw my dr., but I couldn't help myself and

read it last week. The report says the old lession hasn't changed, but I

have two new lesions on the right and left side in the hippocampus

region. And they both lit up with the contrast. ((((Remember when I

went to neuro befor the MRI she implicated that my symptoms were psychosomatic....)))

So it'll be interesting to see how the appt today goes. I don't know what

this all means.

I'm scared, and I feel yucky, and I just

really had to reach out to you all, makes me feel not so alone!

I also really need to move ( I know, not

the time to be thinking about this!) but my ex-husband and his girlfriend live

down the street from me!!!! So everytime I pull out of my driveway, I

have to look down the street, then I see " her " car, or them in the

yard, and lately that makes me break out in tears. So that is really not

helping either!

Gosh, sorry this is just a bunch of

complaints. I've been holding so much in, trying to " keep up

appearances " so to speak for my son and for my job, and I am realizing

this is just too much to carry right now.

Thank you all for being here. I feel

very blessed to be a part of this group.

Kami

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