Nada isolated me

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I was very lonely growing up in nada's care. I constantly felt isolated. Like I

was my own private island that no one else has access to or if I was in a castle

with a huge moat around it with crocodile infested waters. I often cried myself

to sleep as a kid thinking no one was coming to the castle to rescue me and that

I was stuck there forever.

As a kid, my nada had a contemptous relationship with her sister, my aunt. My

aunt had 3 daughters, all around the same age as me. There were times that we

had fun having sleep overs and Christmas times. But of course, my nada had huge

fights with my aunt and that fun was gone. My WHOLE life, I was told that my

aunt was the evil one. That she never loved me and that her daughters (my

cousins) never really wanted to hang out with me. Any gift she gave me was

severly ridiculed by my nada ( " that dress she bought you is ugly " ). I grew up

thinking she was the so-called enemy.

I reconnected with my cousin a while ago and of course, my nada hates this! She

sees it as a betrayal...blah blah blah. Well the other day she calls me to catch

up on stuff and precedes to tell me how her mom, my aunt (a.k.a The Enemy) had

always loved me and that she wanted to get close to me as a kid but my nada

wouldn't allow it. She always wanted to have a niece, according to her daughter,

but my nada isolated me. I was horribly saddened by this! How could my nada see

me crying and do that!!

Has anyone else ever experienced this? Complete isolation? I am an only child so

I had no one to help me. Has anyone ever experienced family isolation as a kid,

only to discover as an adult that it was your nada and not them?

AJ