Guest guest Posted June 19, 2010 Report Share Posted June 19, 2010 " I shouldn't know that! " Boy, did that sentence strike a nerve with me... how many things I could put in that category. I'm going to start a list... feel free to chime in: " I shouldn't know that.... " but I do... things I know from being a KO: I shouldn't know my Nada's sexual preferences and the details. I shouldn't know her finances: since I was age 4: and how they affect/scare her and impact me. I shouldn't know the details of her her alleged abuse at the hands of her father: but which no one in the family will substantiate. I shouldn't know that the reason she left my bio dad when I was 3 is because she " was bored and you will bore of all men so don't get too invested. " I shouldn't know that she's had sex with her cousins: while high on pot: and drunk: repeatedly. I shouldn't know she only married my step dad so she didn't have to work: the one job she held the longest in her life: 14 months. I shouldn't know that the suicide attempts were always because I had let her down: or that that last OD was intentional: or that I had to be a right to be mad when my then 8year old is the one who found her. I shouldn't know how to bandage lets she's dug up to bleeding: that guns to the head can't be held in that position for hours on end and that she only does these things right before I enter the room for maximum impact. I shouldn't know how to have her committed to the psych ward with one call. I shouldn't know how to manipulate a hoard of Dr's to get any pill I want: anytime: anyplace. I shouldn't know that she uses people; openly: and with great fanfare when she's bored. I shouldn't know that her resume is made up with stuff she never did and backed by professional trainings she never attended: and that I have a right to be mad because she had me writing these resumes for her since I was 13. I shouldn't know that her current match.com: whom she now lives with and is buying a house with: is married: and she's sick of him: and trashes him out regularly. I shouldn't know that she's a liar: she's dramatic: she's inconsistent: she causes trouble and she'll never be straight with me or herself. I should know, however, that I am NOT her... Lynnette Next.... > > has anyone watched " Her Only Child " a 2008 movie that is showing on lifetime this weekend? I am going to read about it online but surely this mother is a bad cross between borderline, narcissist and well, sociopath. Sometimes it seems like the borders between those three things are pretty slim. > > This mom makes my own NADA look relatively tame...but the attention seeking need is familiar - just the extremes are a bit more extreme. > > Not sure how often it will be repeated but Lifetime movies usually are. there is 15 minutes left and the daughter just left her to begin NC/LC and the NADA pulled out a gun. hmmmm...at some point, knowing the attention seeking lengths - you can't be sure if she will use it on herself! I seem to know too well that dead attention is better than none at all. I shouldn't know that! > > ugh. ame > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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