Re: A year without nada

[Guest guest]

Doug,

I'm not sure what to say -- my condolences don't seem like enough. However,

I understand exactly what you are feeling. My mother died May 26th, 2007.

This May came and went and I didn't even think about her death on the

actual day (I did a few days before and a few days after).

It hurts to think about how sad and depressed my mother was. How she spent

her entire life in a state of 'borderline' and never really recognized what

she was doing to others and how much she hurt people. There was good in my

mother even though I tend to only remember the bad things most of the

time. I think she loved me and my sister in her own way. Sadly, her way was

never what we needed.

In a message dated 6/14/2010 12:48:56 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time,

doug883@... writes:

Gang

In a few weeks it will have been a year since nada s death.

For all the freedom, I do miss her. She was sick and a pain, but she

was all I got for a mom.

I reflected that our final time together she was fully symptomatic, in a

psychotic break, and awful to deal with.

I sort of expected that would be how it ended.

The book is progressing, but I ve given up trying to control where it

goes. Just random writings about life with nada keep flowing out.

And perhaps for us who lived in the Fog that is the way it was.

I ll have to pull it together in some order before I send it to an

editor for a first review, but for now we ll just let the ideas come.

It is quite a journey, a childhood, then a lifetime as a child of a BP.

We all know the pain, and many of the effects. I hope I can give a voice

to the journey with my book.

I hope she is at peace now.

Doug

[Guest guest]

Hi Doug,

I am sorry how it was with your mother/nada. I know

she was all you had for a mom and it is hard even so to let go.

I did not realize it was so soon since she died.

I appreciate your last wish for her, that she is at peace.

And I wish you luck in gathering your words together for your

book.

take care,

~patricia

A year without nada

Gang

In a few weeks it will have been a year since nada s death.

For all the freedom, I do miss her. She was sick and a pain, but she

was all I got for a mom.

I reflected that our final time together she was fully symptomatic, in a

psychotic break, and awful to deal with.

I sort of expected that would be how it ended.

The book is progressing, but I ve given up trying to control where it

goes. Just random writings about life with nada keep flowing out.

And perhaps for us who lived in the Fog that is the way it was.

I ll have to pull it together in some order before I send it to an

editor for a first review, but for now we ll just let the ideas come.

It is quite a journey, a childhood, then a lifetime as a child of a BP.

We all know the pain, and many of the effects. I hope I can give a voice

to the journey with my book.

I hope she is at peace now.

Doug

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