father's day is over and now NADA thinks she can start calling again.

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harumphh.

5 weeks no contact. father's day. I call. we talk 10 minutes. it went ok. it was

trivial, not a conversation people who care about each other have but it was

civil. Monday night she called. tonight she called.

tonight she was calling to tell me her sister is in the ER. I didn't tell her

that I had already spoken with " up north " family and had actually known about

the situation way before she did. My aunt asked me to NOT mention to my mom that

she was going to the ER earlier today. ( " If you talk to her... " --- " I

won't! " ). My mom's reaction is always all about her (of course!) and my aunt

just couldn't stand sitting in the ER hearing my mom go on and on about her own

issues. My mom also gets so jealous of my relationship with her sister...so my

aunt and I pretend to NADA that we don't speak much. She gets ugly about it.

One of my fears is that she would see my call on father's day permission to be

in my business again. My aunt told me this morning that my mom told her that we

were " talking again " . i said " No, I called my dad on father's day. that's all " .

I don't want to have to start this all over again. I really don't and even

worse, I can't allow the negativity back into my life yet. I am not ready yet.

curse you father's day!